in here, it lies all the imperfections

Shifted

2009-12-28T14:48:00.002+08:00

Officially shifted to http://www.myapplepies.wordpress.com/. (:

you guys are the reason for the change in me.

2009-09-06T00:27:00.001+08:00

I guess at the end of the day, such things really make us feel that all the time we have spent on them is worth it. Changes being made, for the better, I feel proud to know that I’m part of it too. (: Isn’t this what we want to see in them after all the trainings? Power, status, and all other politics, kick them away and we will find ourselves in such a beautiful world, making differences in people’s lives and seeing them change for the better.

P/s. To both my respected sir & maam, thanks for roping me in and giving me the chance to be able to make a difference. And of course, thanks to you, sir for guiding me and being the one to pull me in, allowing others to rope me in for events.

Where's my rainbow?

2009-08-30T15:42:00.002+08:00

I loathe myself for the 88bucks. Now if 88bucks appeared in my mailbox, I'll still be upset until someone buys it from me. ): Tonertonertoner, you are expensive. & why did I have to be so careless to buy the wrong model?

School's really hectic, with the amount of notes and readings stacking up really high now and I haven't had the time to touch it (since work and tuitions are taking up all my time). I seriously need to get started, really.

I'm pretty vexed over certain issues. Giving me a headache.

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Just for Laughs

2009-08-24T00:00:00.006+08:00

When life gets so hectic & monotonous, such himbotic talks actually pep up one's day. (: And of course, it's from an expected himbotic individual that all these came about. Hahaha.

P/s. Click on it to enlarge the himbotic convo. (;

Hope it makes your day! (:

This is in my life too

2009-08-11T01:36:00.003+08:00

I'm back from Oweek 2009! :D & HAPPY 44TH BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE! (:

And as usuals, we all had lots of fun. With Rechno/Rothello, there's bound to be lots of fun. We won the best og in Arts Camp and we are still the best in oweek in our hearts! You guys totally rocked R house, and rocked the whole camp and made it a super wonderful camp for everyone! There's no other og that I wanna be in, other than Rechno/ Rothello. Fabulous ogls, wonderful councillors, & super enthusiastic freshies, it all contributed to this wonderful og. I believe everyone of them had a fair share of fun and laughter. (:

I'm thankful that I know people like Shuyu, Felix, Norvin and all in Rechno/Rothello this Artscamp and Oweek. And of course, not forgetting my Raidee lovers, Amer, Sherry, Gin, Omela and etc. They are the bunch of wonderful people that I have met in uni and of course, not to forget, happy 1 year anniversary Raidee lovers! :D And like what our dear house IC has written on his msn nick, R is not any letter, it's our OUR WORD. The love for R house runs like the blood in us. <3

Had many other activities to beef up my schedule other than Oweek which took up the bulk of it since 30thjuly-8thaug. Went for ndp preview show which totally rocks my socks, many birthday celebrations for my siblings, father & grandpa, meetups with classmates and lovelies, work at student care centre & tuitions took up all my time ever since my last entry. Still got to carry on working when the term starts to keep the bucks coming in.

Many events took place during this period of time too. Some bonds were nearly lost and broken, some others were forged. No matter how many are being forged, let's cherish all around us and not let anything be lost. I nearly experienced it, and it was already a painful experience which I never want to experience the actuals. Let it be good, and nothing can be better than that. Let's all pull through it, together.

School's starting tomorrow, and I'm officially a Year 2 student! (: Still remember the feeling I had as a freshie last year, feeling all scared and all for school. But ohwells, this time round, the feeling seems different. I'm kind of looking forward to school. And hurrays for enduring through year1 and still kicking strong now! (: Got to buck up more for this sem to increase my caps. & I'll be seeing more familiar faces in school starting tmr! My dearest zhen, sharon & sf, og mates & fellow Rhouse mates, m sirrrrr, eyecandies (heheh) and all gonna be in school! (:

Got to end my entry here. Shall post photos of artscamp, oweek, ndp preview show, all the celebrations and meetups and my timetable the next time blogger allows for it to do so. PS/. I think there's something wrong with blogger that I can't seem to post any photos up. :/ This sucks especially when I have many many photos to share. Gonna start my first lesson at 10am later on at Science. Goodnights!

2009-07-23T09:13:00.003+08:00

I'm rarely up so early in the morning. Not to online of course, but ya, here I am cos my partner overslept on me and there's no more exercise session today. But no worries, I'm not at the least angry/vexed and all. (: I think I have changed to be a better person in this aspect. I don't flare/be angry/vexed when people are late/overslept on me. That's a positive point! Still many things on my list for me to change! & of course, one issue is still hanging over my head. I wish to settle it in a good way, but I'm scared that things may turn out wrong. :/

Alrighties, gonna wash up before heading off to IMM to shop around before going for work later.

A beautiful rainbow to paint the grey away.

2009-07-21T01:17:00.000+08:00

Just changed my blogskin and tidied the layout this morning. A fresh look to start jotting down the happenings in my life again. Makes this place looks more lively. I haven't got the time to do up the links section (maybe I should just link a few people. It can be quite a hassle to manage the links when people keep changing their urls :/) and the tagboard is always an issue. To put it up or not, whether I have the time to manage it or not, it's always an issue. Shall give myself a few days grace to think about it. Ain't any hurry.

One major happening in my life that took place last friday (also bettina's 21st!). I finally took off my metallic braces and I have straight teeth now! Hurrays! :D It's finally out of my mouth after 1 and a half years. Though wearing retainers suck & it's super troublesome that I have to take it out before every single meal, it beats having my old crooked teeth. It was simply atrocious last time. Shall take the issue of wearing retainers on a more positive note, it can help me to shed some fats since I will think thrice before snacking (taking out and wearing retainers is troublesome).

As mentioned in my previous entry, my fourth finger is injured and indeed, it turned out much worst today. I'm still typing with 9 fingers and that finger of mine is super swollen. It's making my left hand swell a little too. :/ And as a result, I went to pay the chinese sinseh a visit after work just now. Couldn't join Rechies in the end. Sorry guys! ): Anyways, hopefully the swelling will ease tomorrow. It's hard to do things properly and efficiently, with only 9 fingers active.

Shall end my relatively long entry and head to bed. A long but fulfilling day tomorrow. Heading to gram's place before starting work at 1pm. Hopefully the naughty kids don't drive me crazy. & Htht with sharon over dinner at Old Town White Coffee tmr. Definitely something worth looking forward to. (p/s. Hope that the other R house councillors enjoy themselves at East Coast Park tmr! On a random note, how I miss the last two times I went there. :/)

I guess it's just me. I shouldn't have done anything in the first place. I realised that I still feel for it very deeply even till now that I'm re-reading through the convo. I guess it just decoded the password for my bank of emotions. This isn't something that when good things happen in your life, it will balance up the happy vs sad mood balance. No matter how many good things are happening now, I guess unless it's fully resolved, it will always come back to haunt, and bring along many tears with it. I'm finding it hard to glue the broken pieces together. ): I guess it's just me. I don't know how to face this whole thing, balancing my emotions, crashed expectations and myself. ))):

~~I'm sorry for everything. It just lies in me.~~

My handicapped finger :/

2009-07-19T23:55:00.006+08:00

My fourth finger on my left hand is handicapped as I'm typing this entry.

Sister pulled and twisted it just now and it's feeling a little numb at times and painful at times. Now it feels painful when it's bent. ): Anyone know the reason behind it? Talk to me online if you know the cause/how to make it not painful and be back normal.

As I was scanning through my organiser, I realised that I haven't been having a full day of break, just lying on my bed, listening to music and slacking around for the ENTIRE JUNE AND TILL 19THJULY TODAY. It has been packed with red ink, activity after activity, work& tuition and all. With so many other things happening in my life which carries so much emotions with them, I realised that I'm actually not a superwoman. Another busy week ahead. Red ink filled throughout the entire row.

School is reopening, and I'm packed with activities to the max during my entire summer break.
I need a break, like seriously.

On a random note, I think I can predict what can happen really accurately. It's not "time will tell", it's "esther tells". Shall put on a mask for the next entry.

Put your heart in. You will see the light soon.

It's so out of line, to try to turn time back

2009-07-18T00:30:00.003+08:00

~~Is life being controlled by a button which others can press on it anytime to control your life?~~
Is it that?
Why do I feel that mine is? Press the button, throw it to one side and move on to find other new lines to intersect?
~~):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):~~

\the chocolates left outside.

2009-07-13T11:13:00.004+08:00

I so wanted to blog for the past week but has been really packed with emotions, tuition&work&meetups&nightsout for the entire week, the former being packed throughout the week (esp the first half) and the latter, throughout the week.

Many have talked to me but I decline to elaborate on my previous post. Thanks all for your concern, but I won't disclose any details about it except to my close friends cos maybe inside me, I still feel that things may perhaps turn out for the better. Somehow, deep in me, I'm still holding the tinge of hope close to me. Whether it does/does not, I'm giving all I can. I believe it's all up to the other party. That's esther I guess. No matter how hard she falls every time, she doesn't give up hope just then cos she believes in one thing, "you will when you believe".

Haven't got the time to blog about Arts Camp & I'm heading for precamp after work tonight to join the rest of the Rechnies & R house! In short, it was a blast. :D Shall blog about it when I'm back from oweek precamp.

Anyways, I have changed my hairstyle last Monday. I guess whenever I feel really down, I'll change a new look to perk myself up. And this time, it's no exception. To those who have seen my new hairstyle, congrats! To those who have not, wait till you see me! (: Or maybe, catch it on facebook.

Got to go pack my bag for precamp before I head off to work! Shall be back to blog about my life and everything else soon!

It's all down in the lost walk.

2009-07-06T00:56:00.009+08:00

Just how far does it take to make it right? I'll go that far. But I guess, no matter how far I go, it's too late cos you have gone too far for me to even catch the shadow you left behind.

I have been trying, have always been. I want to make it good cos I think it's hard to find somebody to click well, to read your mind, listen to you tell long long stories, complain and grumble and pout, but it's lost.

One thing that is definite, it didn't cross my mind that the restart button has been pushed even before I predicted it to be. The teeny weeny memories just got pushed to one side cos of this restart button. Not that I didn't realise that things weren't normal. Just that, I guess as humans, we do need time to adjust to it together slowly. We should also make decisions as a whole, together, not as a single party, wielding the decisions as and when one feel that it's time to do so. It should be done together, cos it takes two to clap, to make things right. To at least get it right on the track, it should be done at a consensus level. It isn't fair to do it that way. But I guess I have no veto power?

I guess the 8hours of notetin making still didn't convey the message that I wanna put across. Needless to say, the chocs and video won't do the job, if the notes can't even do it. I remember it clearly that "I don't wanna _____ you" was stated very clearly. It's a statement deep down from me, but it may have been taken like any random usual line. There are many things deep down which I want to say & confess, (it's want, not wanted) but I guess it won't be heard too since the ear doesn't want to be here. It's not any emergency bell, it's like the bell tied on to the anklet. But now that it's said to be a job done, I know how much I'm worth and which schedule I fit into, covered it up and worth. "Until then, protect like no other", it doesn't seem to fit into this chapter of the story anymore.

Don't sing "the reason" cos that doesn't fit my rule of life. Sing "the climb" instead. It isn't about how fast things must be made changes to, it is about how you are going to change it. Take your time, cos better solutions and decisions are thought of when the two put their heads together to rack about it.

There’s always going to be another mountain
I’m always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I’m going to have to lose,
Ain’t about how fast I get there,
Ain’t about what’s waiting on the other side
It’s the climb

So what if I don't think it's the best turn out this way? I can't do anything for I'm not the one who decides on it. Now that so many things are just felt only on my side, I guess all these wouldn't be felt as much as I do too. The sorrows, the laughters, the sweets, I feel it, so strong in me. Perhaps it has been running in me, subconsciously.

So many things running through, really fast in my mind. If it's across, it's not that bad, cos I know it ran past but it's within, in my mind. Now, it's really hard.
One thing I didn't realise from the start was that it would hurt so badly.

"Don't say hurtful things to me, I'll run away."
Now I guess, we have switched roles and I'm the one who's running away.

2009-07-03T01:28:00.003+08:00

Came across this in one of the documents in my lappie. Found it to be rather meaningful.

What do you take away from this?

There was once a blind girl who hated herself because she was blind. She hated everyone except for her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.

She told her boyfriend, "If only I could see the world, then I would marry you."

One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her. When the bandages came off, she was able to see everything, including her boyfriend.He asked her, "Now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"

The girl look at her boyfriend and realised that he was blind. The sight of his closed eyelids shocked her. She didn't expect it at all. The thought of looking at them the rest of her life led her to refuse to marry him.

Her boyfriend left in tears and days later wrote a note which said, "Take good care of your eyes my dear, for before they were yours, they were mine."

2009-06-26T11:04:00.019+08:00

It shall be pulled through.

I think my previous entries have raised quite some concern. Thanks to all. No worries, I'm fine now. It will be solved, in the best way it can be, I'm sure. (:

I'm going to be away again tonight till next wednesday (if I managed to get leave for tuesday & wednesday) for Arts Camp! Not really feeling very prepared for it. I guess my busy schedule for the past week just chews up all my enthusiasm & preparedness. Ohwells. Been slogging myself out for tuition and work every single day until I'm going bonkers already. There's really no time to relax myself out at all. :/ But I'll be back to the High me tonight/tmr when the camp starts!

After Arts Camp, I really need to slow down the pace of life. Sometimes, when my schedule gets so really packed up to the brim, every single day, it gets really draining. Not really meeting my objective of making it fulfilling. For the entire june, I have been away for camps for more than 3weeks! Just how long can my body take it man. But ohwell, I guess sometimes it's not only a responsibility, it's also about the commitment and passion that drives me to go camps, one after another. Stay strong, I guess.

Recently, I have been thinking about my feelings. I don't know how to approach it anymore. Let nature take its course I guess.

Some photos before I head off for work! More up on facebook already!

defiance against gravity

k with sharon! (:
ECP!

ULP 2009 TRAINERS (:

ULP 2009 ALPHA TRAINERS (:

supposed to be only 4 of us. -shakes head at the head behind- haha

batchies (:

trainers' warcry (:

formation for handshake (:

with denise & leonard (:

successful jumpshot after a few attempts (:

estee note tin (:

Till then, much missed!

P/s. 4/7! 3 more to go!

2009-06-19T23:36:00.005+08:00

I feel like hitting the beach again, walking on the coarse yet soft sand, letting the water run in between my toes and enjoy the cool breeze. I seriously need another walk there.

I really need to let my hair down. And on a random note, I just chopped my fringe today. It was a rash decision after the 1hour walk from jurong point back home. Such long walks doesnt really seem long on the days I feel down and the road ahead just seems so endless. Cos at the end of the walk, I know for sure that the hump is still there. Such long walks home are especially good when you really need to let your tears flow naturally after holding it back the entire day instead of doing it in crowded places, like taking a bus back home and etc. But all in all, I'm with my bangs now. Bangs always make people look like dolls? Just being random.

I'm in love with the climb by miley cyrus. The lyrics is awesome. Oh, I realised that I haven't caught Hannah Montana yet. Guess I won't be able to catch it already.

Don't know why I suddenly posted here even though I haven't been blogging even in my private blog since last month? 2nd post of the day already. Too many things running through, too much to be felt.

Shall end it here. Till then, loves.

2009-06-19T01:59:00.005+08:00

Just how far does it take to make it right? I'll go that far.

When it all falls apart, the final easiest solution that doesn't require you to be confused and irritated with the way things are and questioning the reasons behind why it's you will be used as the final resort. Though it's the easiest solution that can be said, it's one of the hardest to be done. Considering that I'm someone who's full of feelings and being all so emotive, it's hard. Losing the people around us is never an easy thing to get through for me.

I'm not sick of it, neither do I feel that it has been all a disappointment. It hasn't been. More often than not, sometimes, I'm always taken aback by the surprises and nice things happening around. We are all humans, you and I both make mistakes every day. But I hope it won't get us down. Long as we stand up and fight through all obstacles till we are dead, we'll be left with no regrets of not even attempting in the first place. We may win this tough war and it toughens us as we walk through the many chapters of life that is lying ahead of us.

But if there is really left with no other choices/no hopes that things will turn out better, I'll leave.

All in all, I hope everything will be fine. Missed the joy and the laughters. Let it be fine. Stay strong.

P/s. I'm typing nonsense that I can't even find my stand in these few chunks of paragraphs that I've been typing. Perhaps cos it's past 2am and I had a long day of work. :/ Ohwells.

2009-04-17T01:42:00.005+08:00

Thanks for all the tags!
Will be back for a long entry before this weekend. (:

To my dear friend, hang in there! I know you will pull it through. Have faith! Many loves.

On a sidenote,
It's not right to do this. I know it deep in me that it's unhealthy.
It will not turn out right eventually.
I will have to have a grip over myself & my actions.
Before it falls deeper.

FIRST POST OF THE YEAR(:

2009-04-05T00:11:00.020+08:00

-BIG WAVES TO THE AIR-

I'm finally back here. Can't really bear to abandon this place since it has been with me since I'm sec 3. A nice feeling to be back here. Will be back to tidy up the links and etc after 13th as I'm really busy and tied down with a lot of assignments.

I have the following assignments to be completed:

Southeast Asia Draft Essay (6th April)
Chinese Traditions Project Draft (6th April)
English Draft (8th April)
Chinese Traditions Presentation (9th April)
Southeast Asia Politics Essay 3000words (13th April)
English Project (13th April)
Chinese Traditions Project (13th April)

I just want 13th April to come quickly!

Anyways, here are 5 photos to sum up the quick post before I head to bed. (:

P/s. shall make it a 5 photos (minimum) benchmark for every post.

MY 20TH(:

And as usuals, I'll do the same thing for every year. Though many (or almost all) will not see this (since I haven't updated for like half a year at least?), it's still deeply appreciated for their well wishes, their surprises, the pressies and their cards!

&& Thanks to the following (according to chronological order): wanjun hazel yvonneteo jeslynn jerlinajie charmaine qingxiang shangjing (12am) minyen huihui yvonne yixuan jiamin shuying adeline jiawen jingni ginyong amerlyn nicholas qiuyu daniel(nus) qizhen lixuan shujian ashley jiawenchong evonnemaam yongjun hongyi verajie davidsir zhiqian daisy yanling leonard eugene yuhuimaam kristie bettina denise sharon eileen freddy yankai jessica leonard shiyuan peiwen audrey peishi clarencesir junjie sherlyn yifang yaxin emily ashley jinhua yanping jerome wenfang chanel yuanhao zaidisir(1159pm) alice estheryeo fulin jason connie alan daniela hoehan conglin weijian chiuweng sir catherine for your sms-es, calls, msn wishes & blog posts. (:

&& of course, sincerely thank all those who wished me on my facebook too! (Sorry that I didn't name out cos the list just keep going on & my eyes are closing on me. =x )

That's all for my first post of the year. (: And and, congrats to jes and ni tongxue for being the top 2 here! The prize for being the top 2 is ...

TO GET TO SEEEEEEEEE ME SOON! :D

Yayyys! I bet they must be so happy that they are jumping now, especially Ni tongxue. :D

Alrighties, it's 130am. My bed's calling me! Goodnights!

2008-10-08T02:13:00.002+08:00

blog closed for the time being.

2008-09-25T11:17:00.005+08:00

hellooooooo! (:

here's the long awaited update.
i'm so so so so sorry for not being able to update a proper entry ever since the 22nd aug entry.

school has been pretty hectic and adding on to that, i have 3 tuitions on hand

so it's rather tiring for me.

and i have been sick for the past few days too. :/

anyways, thanks to all for visiting my blog all these while even when it's not updated. (:

i'll be back here often since i'm having recess week now.

yea, i really need to slow down the pace of my life for a while.

even for a little while, it's good enough.

time flies so fast that within a blink of an eye, i've already gone through a month in school.

this one month has been tough, for i have to learn to adapt in a new environment,

making new friends, getting used to the timetable, praying hard that i wont mix up the

classrooms and blocks for tutorials (which i did, once =x ).

uni life is not as simple as i thought it would be.

but like what i told my lovelies and to those who have been through my tough pre Alevel, A level and post Alevel period with me, you will know that it's a long journey before i get to go nus.

it's a tough one, a long one.

esp at the post results release period in april, may when i crumbled and fall due to other issues,

that period of time was even tougher to get through.

now that i'm here, i got to keep myself surviving in this hectic uni life no matter what.

thankfully, i have sharon with me. (:

it's really something to be thankful for.
and luckily, i have sf too (who always want to irritate me every single day)! (:

and though partner is so far away and not in the same school,

i feel that the distance between us isnt drifting!

else, life in uni will be hard to get through.

and of course, luckily, i have nice tut mates and of course raidee. (:

anyways, for your info to book me for dinners & etc,

as long as it dont fall on wednesday which i have AEROBICS and thursday which i have tuition at bukit timah, the rest of the days are more flexible.

but still, please prebook in advance. (:

in short, here's the main highlights of what i've been doing for the past few weeks.

social work carnival, meetup with minyen, dinner with denise, sentosa trip, little india trip, kbox singing session, pw outing, projects.

the thing that i'm most proud of myself is the kbox singing session cos i actually SANG!

and i still sang many many songs! i want to go kbox again! ((:

PICTURES TIME!

doesnt the picture show it very clearly what you should not do? (:

with the spca volunteers (:

the unglam me trying to check if my hair is alright =x

with johnson (:

with minyen & friends (:

trip to little india! (:

spastic us ((:

the ahmas and ahpeks (:

us at sentosa! (:

____

with denise at hogs breath cafe (:

and i'm glad she liked the present.

____

pw outing to geylang for dimsum & d24 durians! ((:

finally managed to have a pw outing and man, i really miss jj001!
as usuals, we waited for the LATE man and went on to geylang on a search for tianji porridge.
but however, we settled on mongkok dimsum instead for we really have a strong craving for dimsum.

so anyways, after dimsum, went to walk along the lorongs as suggested by mr jer ng.
now i know that looks sure can be deceiving.
saw a decent man walking into the brothel. -gasps-

but like what mr jer ng said, no decent man will walk those lorongs alone.
:/

ahsoon led us to the shop which sells really nice d24 durians!
i love durians! :D
my whole pw group (including sharon! HAHA) loves durians! ((:

went on to sharon's place after that with ahsoon.
and we have lots of fun taking photos in that big big mirror in her living room! (:

____

alot of people have gone overseas, and i miss them.

yaxin is away to china for 4months,

adrian away to aust for 2months,

and most importantly, cousin is away for 4 YEARS.

hope that they are all taking care of themselves abroad!

TAG REPLIES:
i dont know where to start replying from. =x but really, many thanks to all who has been here to show me their care and concern during that period of time i'm feeling stress. thanks to the following: jmin, cheekeong sir, zhiqian, bettina, yuanhao, mary, kristie, leonard, huling, shuying, jiawen, peihwa, yiqing, jeslynn, yongjun, jingni, yankai, vivian, cherminn, yixuan, sumei, tommy, weijian, alvin, dionne, mildred, jiaying and cousin. (:
tags after this post will be replied to promptly, i hope. (: really many thanks to you all! (:

2008-09-22T02:28:00.000+08:00

hello alllll!

the entry will be updated by tmr (:

nights.

2008-09-09T23:07:00.004+08:00

hello all!

thanks so much for your concern, be it on tags/smses/calls.

it's appreciated! (:

just here to say a big thanks and no worries about me.

dont really have the time to blog for today till friday for there's a lot of work to be done (chi ppt, english assignment and ppt slides) and moreover, i'm super sick today.

been having gastric since morning and the fainting spell kept coming to me till i reach home.

and i'm still currently running a fever which even worsens & slows down my maximum capacity at doing my work. :/

off to complete my work.

will reply all my tags in the next entry.

~~perhaps it's all a clash.~~

~~& i'm upset regarding this. :/~~

~~it's such a awful feeling that the tears just kept flowing during the chat.~~

~~it's not insistence, it's just to get a confirmation.~~

i'm like that now

2008-08-30T01:38:00.007+08:00

yes, i'm like that now. :/

perhaps the pain from my tightening of braces earlier today is making me feel this way.

perhaps it's also due to reasons such as stress, & some misc problems.

and moreover, i'm running a fever now. :s

goodnights!

will reply to the tags in my next entry.

the emotional cycle in me is beginning to drop & deteriorate. :/

has been feeling pretty lousy these days.

as it gets worse, i feel like finding a place to hide & get away.

nic, get well soon!

2008-08-22T23:01:00.013+08:00

in shorts,

i'm in NUS FASS now (just in case some of you still dont know where i'm studying now)
taking political sci, history, south east asia and social work for my modules in this sem
nic tan is hospitalised! ):
AED exam on sunday! ):
everything's suffocating me! ):

___

was supposed to head out to queensway & to ICG for icecream to chill out today but it was cancelled.

bestie buddy nic is sick and hospitalised now. ):

headed straight to changi hospital after lecture with sharon & hui.

seeing my pale buddy lying on that bed, i think we all feel the pain & discomfort he was experiencing.

stayed in the hospital with eileen (nic's gf) & my two ladies until about 8 before we headed to eastpoint for dinner.

i really hope he will recover soon!

prays for a speedy recovery for good friend!

___

i'm super exhausted. yes, super!

been reaching home at 10plus, 11 ever since monday for i have tuitions every single day.

it's so hard having to juggle school work, 3 tuitions, some time for my family and friends and some free time for myself.

___

it just dawned upon me that communications really play an important role in all our lives just like mentioned in my previous post. due to lack of communications, misunderstandings arise and sometimes, we do not even understand our friends around us well. with the lack of communications, it will cause all of us to drift apart.

oh well, i hope that things will turn out fine.

___

i'm attending the carnival at esplanade tmr from 6-10pm under the SPCA booth.

so if you so happen to be around that area, pay me a visit yea! (:

dont think i will be back for this weekends for this coming sunday, i'm having AED exam at hq in the morning. hopefully i'll be able to pass the exam which is rather hard since till now, i have yet to collect the notes from waimin maam. so it leaves me no time to study for the exam.

sigh, i still have yet to chill out.

and everything is suffocating me! :s

TAG REPLIES:
guoying; heyya! it has been so so long ever since i last saw you! i miss your singing of the hokkien song you sang during syf la! really hope to see you around soon! (:
shuying; HAHAHA. i'm REALLY forever 18 what. (; dont worry so much about your Os since it's over! still can retake mah! work hard for the upcoming Os and i'm sure you will be able to score! JIAYOU!~
jmin; love! you better find a day to meet me up! you are even busier than me! how can that be man. hahaha it's time we catch up yea! and i have a lot of your things with me and you have a lot of mine with you! lol.
kristie; hahaha i change blogskin la. never come to wrong blog. wah, your chinese so powerful? dont look like lehhh. =x
mike; HAHAHA. you are a loser please! still impersonate and use my name! lol. as my aogl, how can you say that man?! HAHA.
huiling; LOLOL. wah so meaning you treat me very nice already la! you sure or not?! omg you are super violent! i should video down your violent actions and send it to the police. HAHAHA. now then you know you are super thick skin. OOPS! =x how have you been yea?
hazel; hahaha. like what i tagged in your blog, yes, i do miss you tooooo! long time since we last catch up with each other. hurry get your Os over and done with and let's meet up for lunch/dinner yea! & i'm glad you are doing so well and so happy now!~
yiqing; haha. what picture? nice to see you around during gold accred the other day!
jiawen; hellooooooooooo! (:
elaine; -waves back- HAHA. long time since i see you around yea! meet up for catching up sooon yea since your school is super near to mine! (:
yankai; yea! hang in there alright! yes, we need to meet up after your papers! (: and i'll be at your favourite spca booth tmr in the carnival! jiayou for your remaining papers!
zq; hahahaa. study hard and work hard for your dnt! and yes, it's a secret between us! JIAYOU and we shall shock everyone together and make a comeback somehow! (:
bek; you are missed tooooo! and you are getting prettier already! really hope to see you around soon yea! and i'm glad you are so loved now. takecares! (:
qiyou; who's the nicest guy around? -.- thanks! (:
jieqi; HAHA. that sure doesnt look like you leh! you look so different now! anyways, hope you've been doing well! it's at least a month since i last saw you all!
sherry; helllooo! (: you are so fast to find your way here! more yumcha! ((: and eh, i cant read your lj lehh. ):
yuanhao; yea, it's back in action. but dont have the time to update it so frequently as before cos i'm really tied down with a lot of school stuff, work commitments and etc. anyways, hope you are doing fine in ns! and nice seeing you around during accreds! (:
pat; yea! we should! since your faculty is just a road away from mine, it's super near for us to meet up for lunch! and it's nice bumping into you for a number of times! (:

communications

2008-08-18T19:57:00.002+08:00

communications play an important role in our lives today.

and yes, without it, almost everything wont work out.

2008-08-12T12:08:00.008+08:00

I have caught quite a few movies, just as usuals. (:
been away for oweek for the past 1 week so it explains for the lack of proper entry ever since 25thjuly. anyways, rewinding back! (:

2 SATURDAYS BACK,

I caught the dark knight with my lovely denise at tampines mall. (:

it is really a 5star movie!

Though we were both really drained out by the mass accred that took place in the morning, it is really a thumbs up movie that is not to be missed definitely! (: and that glutton actually finish up the whole big box of popcorn in the first 2hours of the show! Tsktsk.

he really make a good actor! but sad to say, that was his last movie already.

1st August! (:

happy birthday partner!

Partner turns 19! (: went billy bombers to have supper with her, amazing Ashley & huiying! my indulgences are making me really guilty! :/

but anyways, it is her birthday so nothing else matter. (;

thanks love for being with me for the 7th year already.

be it the good or bad, we'll always stand by each other & go through it together. (:

loves!

___

2nd August! (:

Rushed off after oweek to celebrate dads birthday after one whole long day out! (:

___

3rd August! (:

Happy birthday dad! (:
Happy birthday denise! (:

Went tiong bahru plaza to catch x-files: I want to believe with qiyou.

It’s nicer than I have expected it to be though the scenes are quite scary and it freaked me out a few times! –shivers-

Anyways, before the movie, we headed to donut factory! (: yayyys, it is a newly opened outlet. I am sure Jerome ng will be so so so so happy when he learns about this next week when he comes back from Taiwan. Lol

My all time love; double chocolate! (:

Headed to spize for dinner after the movie.

And cheers to myself for being so smart to find my way to spize after only going there once and it was 3 months back when I first went there!

Dinner at spize

Headed on to my fave ICECREAM GALLERY (ICG) for icecream of course. HAHA.

That place is just so cosy and nice! love it to bits!

Met thy & fred there too.

Had my all time fave d24 durian icecream! (:

Strolled back to redhill & home sweet home!
Headed to ahgongs place for short gathering after dumping my stuff at home. (:

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9th August! (:

Went for movies at tiong bahru again with hui.-“money no enough 2”

It’s a really touching movie! It moved me to tears esp during the scene when the granny sacrificed for her grand daughter and gave the 2 packets of blood to her grand daughter.

Went to my faves donut factory to get some donuts before meeting up with my loves at vivo.

yes, i shouldnt be so bothered and affected by it. i did my best to organise.

anyway, i enjoyed my clique's company. (:

maybe, putting in so much efforts isnt enough.

it always require two to clap.

___

just some photos of oweek! (:

i'm so missing camp & i miss raideeeeeeeee!

tao-pok! (:

back from sentosa!

raidee with house ics! (:

___

today i will be having my FIRST lecture at 4pm!
will be in the same lect as sharon & sf! (:
will tidy up my blog & post more photos of oweek in my next entry.
(:

___

&&& OMG. leonard just called me & guess what.
he asked ____ to the phone & talked to me!!!

-heart thumps at a speed of 170/min-

i should have gone for national camp!
i should have known that i'll see ____ in nat camp since np is in charge.
moreover, this week only got 4lectures.

-pulls hair-
i'm so regretting it. :/

alrighties, enough of my excitement. :s
got to calm myself down & out to lunch with cousin before heading to school.
byeeee!

TAG REPLIES:
kristie; you got full marks for what test? haha. yepppps will relink you soon when i'm tidying up my links. (:
shiyuan; haha sounds pretty scary! eh, i warn you first ar, cannot post unglam photos of me! lol. yepppps will go back when i have the time. you take the photo of the noticeboard and send email to me la. haha
xf; hello xinfei! oh really? you're classmates? oops i didnt see you. sorry! hope you've been doing fine! (:
huiling; LOL. pull/push/drag still call nice? hahaha. actually everyone already know even before i say la. =x
jeslynn; omggg! UNGLAMOUROUS photos?! -faints at the thought of it- take it down take it down! lol.
ashley; yepps darling! will relink you when i tidy up my links. awww, it's like that! endure! it's a long term investment! hahaha. what james. i'm esther. lol
gabriel; lol, your birthday on 9thaug meh? hahaha. how's ns huh?
shelley; wow, you are resourceful to have found my blog. (: omggg, please dont remind me of the merlion forfeit. it's all ivan's fault la! lol. thankyou! (:
shuying; hahahaha. you finally agree i'm forever 18! =D i miss you all too. long time since we last met up. how's your studies coming along?
yuanhao; it should be okay by now! (: how's ns? got a lot of off days from ndp duties?

under renovation

2008-08-12T01:47:00.001+08:00

blog is currently under renovation.

will be done up soon! (:

2008-08-09T10:41:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SPORE! (:

Have been singing nat day songs for the past few days in camp and had influenced my og mates to sing with me too!

in short, my love for the country is just unexplainable.

I simply love spore. (:

Finally back from oweek.
It’s really fun and something worth spending my 7days there!
My og is simply great, and R house is simply fabulous!
I’m totally burnt now after the beach day on wed,

war games at west coast park on thur & rag day in src today! :/
Shant dwell more into it now since my mood is pretty lousy.

But all in all, OWEEK, RASINO & RAIDEE=FUN.

Perhaps I’m really too exhausted after 1 week of camp.

Maybe this acts as a catalyst to speed up and worsen my mood.

my bidding for gem modules have failed.
And I’ve used up all my gem account points.
Seriously this is crap.

In addition to that, perhaps it is a bad thing.
I actually cried out last night. :/

Meeting sharon, hui, Eileen, nic & fred later. (:
Guess it’s one of the few things that will make me smile now.

My throat is really sore and I’m having a bad cough.
Will have to drink herbal tea later if i come across any shops selling that.
It reminds me of ...

Anyways, have a great day celebrating the nation’s birthday! (:
Will reply to tags in my next entry for I’m running late again.

As the day draws nearer,
I feel that we’re on a road to nowhere.
Time is running out & things still aren’t on the right track.
I foresee I will cry that day.

2008-08-04T00:56:00.002+08:00

hello all!

this blog will be on hiatus until my camp ends alright? (:

one more short entry before i go.

have been really busy in school with oweek (fass orientation camp) and all the bidding stuff. got through round 1 of bidding and i successfully bid & got my modules: POLITICAL SCI, HISTORY & SEA STUDIES. (: hope that i will get through tmr's round of bidding successfully for general education modules.

out with sgt again! to my faves donut factory & ICG! yayyys.

anyways, will be back for more on 080808/ national day! (:

ilovespore! (:

there have been certain things that have been bothering me.

yes like what sgt said, "chuan dao qiao tou zhi ran zhi".

got to go pack my bag.

till then, take cares! (:

TAG REPLIES:

Hazel; helloooo! yea i've been doing fine! just have been pretty busy with school stuff and orientation. will tag you when i free okays! (: hope you've been doing fine and stufy hard for upcoming exams! (:

Kristie; hahaha i have a lot of good friends too. (:

Cherminn; LOL, you also never ask me to link you what. okay la, linked! (: hope you've been coping well with your studies! long time never see you all already!

Yiqing; haha i expected to see you already cos i got the namelist long time ago. lol but i still dont know how she looks like. hahaha

Huiling; LOL. you dont sound bad la. you are REALLY BAD what. =x yea, pull me along when you go! (:

Jj; HAHA! why you expose me sia?! lolol, i was trying to make myself look neat la. (: and i no need to act busy that day, i was really busy leh. hahhhs.

Qj; helloooo sir! didnt expect to see you here. LOL, but your jokes were really funnnny! (;

Yixuan; LOL, i'm not getting fatter kay! i'm slimming down at the national university of STAIRS! HAHAHA.

Ashley; i'll change it after my camp alrights! sorry love! (; anyway, hope your teeth doesnt hurt now.

Yuanhao; yea! though it's to be continued, i still love it to bits! it's really that nice and i watched it in the theatres twice! (: hope you're doing fine in ns!

Shiyuan; helloooo! i'm doing fine! hope you girls are doing fine tooo! and i'm so glad and proud of you two that you passed ulp! continue to work and strive hard to bring the unit to greater heights alright! you girls can do it! (:

Tommy; HAHA. yes, i think that post will not come in the short run (or maybe in the long run too) since my days are always packed with events like you mentioned. LOL. hope you're doing fine in ns mummy! (:

2008-07-25T10:50:00.001+08:00

Yayys, my weekends were a total blast! (:

here's the summary in short:

CAC
outing on sunday! SPORE FLYERRRR! (:
dimsum buffet with the girls
I SPRAINED MY BACK! ):

SATURDAY!

Though this was not the post I initially expected to get in CAC, it’s this post that allowed me to learn a lot from the senior and junior instructors. And it made me felt that we are all one family. It’s been long since I last get to feel this way and this feeling is definitely great! (: and like what pohboon sir mentioned, it’s really a sense of achievement that we will all feel when the event has ended.

Caught up with quite a number of instructors & cadets during the event too! seeing familiar faces around just feel great! and something to my dismay, qijun sir’s jokes are really super funny. HAHAHA. And and, the marshals can go form a rcy boyband! THE CLICK EIGHT! HAHAHAHA.

GOH viewing the exhibits

i was keeping myself neat! heh.

trophies & awards for finals!

CAC helpers (:

with marshals at the background trying to steal the limelight. HAHA

CAC Helpers with GOH(:

To my usher 2ic and the rest of the ushers, good job ladies! (:

had a great experience working with you girls! let’s all go for leg massage together! Hahaha.

with my usher 2ic! (:

Rushed off straight after cac to meet my family for brother’s birthday dinner. I’m so sorry that I made them waited for me for an hour plus! :/ anyways, HAPPY BIRTHDAY BROTHER!

**

SUNDAY!
Went on an outing again! (:
Yayyyys, my weekends are totally well spent!

Slacked at marina square, then headed over to suntec to purchase tickets to watch the red cliff, chilled at millennia walk’s starbucks, dinner at Kenny rogers, movies at suntec and lastly, off to spore flyer! (: all my fav hangout places! :D

us! (:

went to catch redcliff at suntec theatres.

been a year since i last stepped into that theatres.

somehow, i just miss that theatres. :/

anyways, redcliff is a MARVELLOUS MOVIE! (:

Red cliff is really the best Asian movie!!

Really enjoyed the movie to bits! It’s like reiterating the stuff I learnt when I was studying p5 higher Chinese. Haha but of course, with hunks like takeshi acting in it, it made the whole movie even more motivating to carry on watching. HAHAHA. Takeshi is pretty humorous too, with unexpected jokes in certain parts of the movie. Totally enjoyed the show & of course, the company! (: Anyways, I cant wait for part 2 of red cliff to be out in the theatres!

It’s a MUST-WATCH!

&& sgt chua treated me to the ride at spore flyer! (:

And we were the last to catch the last ride for spore flyer!

Luckily we could catch the last ride on time, else I will be so disappointed.

but my camera died on me while i was in the flyer. BOO!

luckily still can take these photos!

&& I felt as though I was on the top of the world when the capsule reached the top! Yayyyyys. ((:

the capsule is so so big and it belonged to me for that 30min!! :D

wowwww, i love this view totallyy! :D

us! (:

ohyayyay. top of the world! (:

it's getting back to the platform. ):

Definitely a fabulous day out! :D
Great company too!
And thanks sgt chua for the treat to the ride at spore flyer & accompanying me though you have been there just last month! ((: we should save up and go for cheap & fun outings!! Hahaha.
when & where's our next outing? (:

TUESDAY!
Went shopping with hui! It has been such a long time ever since I went shopping but till now, that doesn’t explain why (to myself) I spent 110bucks. :/ bought a top, belt, skirt, a pair of socks, some hair accessories and some craft materials! It all summed up to 110bucks! I’m superrr broke. but I know the things I bought will really be put to good use. –self consoles-

**

WEDNESDAY!
Went for dimsum buffet with the girls! (: the laughters that we share really made my day a better one!
I’m DEFINITELY not going to touch prawns and shrimps for the next one week! HAHAHA
Shall post the photos up in my next entry.

Went to hq to settle some accred stuff for sat and to pass betty her headgear.

But too bad, I couldn’t see her there!

and couldnt get to see the rest of the westies! but we shall meet soon yea!

THURSDAY
Anyways, the super clumsy me sprained my back while bending down to retrieve my keys. My back seriously hurts! :/ I had survived with this painful back for this long day! ):

dropped by jurong point & i saw two familiar faces today!

hongyi & bennnnny! (:

seeing familiar faces just makes me smile. (:

And as usuals, the forgetful me left my umbrella at home when i left my house in a rush today. and so, i got all drenched in the heavy rain. and the aircon in bus 157 today is freezing cold. :/

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SISTER!

**

meeting my lovely girls in the afternoon for the submission of the orientation forms.

maybe off to museum with darling & c. (:

meeting jer & hui for dinner & sending jerome off at the airport.

he's going away to taiwan for army for 3 weeks! ):

come back soooooon good friend!

If only we could walk that path together right again.

TAG REPLIES:

Yuanhao; HAHA. yepps! that's a great achievement for me! (: we'll be seeing each other in school! hope you've been doing fine! see you at the accred on sat!

Kristie; HAHA. yaya, you are faster in me in all these! but i watched redcliff & went to spore flyer first! LOL. who's my good friend? o.O

Huiling; hahaha yepps linked! (: next time we can go for events together since we both live in the west!

Cherminn; wah go all the way to spore flyer/changi to get for you popeye's biscuits? you big shot huh? LOL. anyway, just found out you have a blog ytd!

Qiyou; sgt! i had a fabulous sunday with you tooo! yea, you shall be tasked with the responsibility to schedule a day for the next outing. (: and you gonna play the piano for me! :D

Leon; hello leonard! (: haha popeye taste really good! and it would definitely be so much better to eat it while watching popeye! but too bad i couldnt get good seats. haha. hope you've been doing well! (:

Bettina; have faith in yourself! loves you too, woman! (:

2008-07-17T13:50:00.006+08:00

LAST SATURDAY! (:

he went to send me off! LOL.

qiyou, this shall be our meeting point next time. HAHA :p

Went to catch the movie, hancock at tampines mall after visiting all 3 terminals. (:
The movie was funny! with great company too! (:

& I had my fav porridge at crystal jade for dinner! (:

a fabulous day out! (:

I PASSED SFA!!! AND I’M A CERTIFIED STANDARD FIRST AIDER NOW!

YAYYYYYS! (:
Waimin maam and me were just too happy that we passed our exams so it means that we can move on to aed and bcls! (:

Maam treated me to swensens icecream! (:

My all time fave sticky chewy chocolate! (:

MON-NUS HEALTH CHECK UP, OUT WITH GIRLS

Off to nus for medical checkup and tada!~ I’m as fit as ever. But a super happy note, I SLIMMED DOWN FOR AT LEAST 5KG EVER SINCE THE LAST TIME I WEIGH MYSELF!~ WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!~ (:

Darling accompanied me for checkup and off we went to meet the other girls in town for lunch! Thy got such a cool phone! But too bad it’s Samsung. :x anyways, headed to wheelock’s coffeebean and chill out to have a few games of UNO! Hahahaha. Here are the photos of the losers. HAHAHA

pig face! =x

her evil eyes!

still so happy with so many cards! HAHA

SCHEDULE FOR THIS WEEK! (:

TUESDAY- collected A level cert in school, sent phone for repairs
WEDS- tuition, helpers' briefing!
THURSDAY- Tuition at ntu, tuition at bukit timah
FRI- QEPT at NUS, tuition, AGM at Hq
SAT- CAC at amkss, brother's birthday!
SUNDAY- outing! (: SPORE FLYERRRR!

oh did i mention i was going to the spore flyer this sunday?!
mr nice is treating me to spore flyer this coming Sunday for passing my sfa!

YAYYYS! –jumps around-
I’M TOTALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO GOING TO SPORE’S FLYER! So fun! (:

anyways, on a side note, since my cac ushers' stuff is almost completed with only a few amendments to be touched up on,
i guess the thing i'm most worried about now is my qept exam at nus tmr morning.

i got to pass my qept exam, else i got to take up extra english modules for one sem!

wish me luck for qept exam!

&& ushers, all the best! (:

the classic photo that i love the most! (:

TAG REPLIES:

Hazel; helloooooo! It has really been long since we last chatted. Hope you have been doing fine yea! My braces are on to phase 2 with thicker wire! Ouch. Yepps relinked!

Jeslynn; hahaha really? That’s my cousin! We all live in the west area and west area is small!

Alvin; LOL. You are lying man. He wasn’t limping lor. Haha see you this fri & sat!

Maosiie; miss mildred tang! (: yea, I didn’t forget about our promise. I gonna go make necessary arrangements when school reopens. Hopefully they do permit. (: and yes, we got to meet up soon! misses!

Kristie; ahaha I know he’s your good buddy la. Hope you girls are still doing fine!

Yiqing; hello! Yepps sure do. Will tag you when I’m free! I’ll be seeing your sis around! (:

Gabriel; yepps she’s really a nice manager! And you are totally right! That is changi aiport terminal 3! (: woohoo!

Qingxiang; thanks so much for your confidence in me! And yes, I passed! Yayys.

Yixuan; you are so meannnn la! Lol. My eyes are small what.

Unknown; zhen! Thanks so much! (: long time since we last caught up. hope you are still doing well! Year 3 already sure have a lot of projs! All the best! (:

Yankai; yea! Not really a lot of redcross la. Hahaha. Anyways, meet up next week for lunch! (:

make a guess

2008-07-12T23:40:00.001+08:00

make a guess where i went today (:

with qiyou(:

great day out! (:

and to the person who bite my finger today, pray hard that i'm going to pass sfa tmr!

if not, you'll be bitten! =x

shall reply to tags & post more photos tmr!

sfa exam tomorrow! i better go burn midnight oil now before i fail tmr. :/

wish me luck!

last day of work! :/

2008-07-11T00:11:00.005+08:00

There’s a lot of interesting happenings in the office today and it really make my day a great one! The comms meeting, FOR ONCE, was really interesting and funny!

&& my manager was really sweet to make 2packs of cookies for me!

Super sweeeeeet please! (;

anyway, my manager said that I didn’t really smile a lot today.

Of course I don’t,cos it's my last few hours in office later! :/

Anyway, I stayed up last night to make jelly for them. My first time will therefore be dedicated to them and also those meeting me from tmr to Sunday! (:

esp to those who are meeting me, be honoured kay!

colleagues are treating me to jap food at the hilltop near jurong bird park tmr! Anyway, Jeric told me he completed my top few wants. Hahahah.

I shall see tmr if his car stinks and it smells of durians! Lol.

Looking forward to taking lots of photos tmr!

Dreading tmr’s last day of work though.

So ironic right! :/

I think I’ll really miss them. And some of them told me today that they so gonna miss my entertainment and laughters and most importantly, they will miss me.

Omgggg, I cried when I heard that. :s

Awww. Tmr gonna be my final day doing up the daily sales of the company, rolling costs for the purchased parts & inhouse parts, cycle count, gold&palladium & …
-upset upset-

Weekends is coming, which also means that sfa exam is nearing. I’m dead. Been busy for the past few days. No time to study/practise at all! Just left with sat & sun. Howhowhow? :s

anyway, someone NICE volunteered. (:

2008-07-08T23:21:00.004+08:00

DANGER!

-lengthy post ahead!-

SFA course was pretty interesting.

The instructor even showed us a video clip of finding nemo to instill in us confidence that even birds can do abdominal thrust so we sure can! HAHA.
So interesting please! (:

but then again, I fell asleep during my typical napping hours. :/

Bandaging is quite hard! And there is no “casualty” for me to practise on.

Any volunteers before this Sunday’s exam? :x

Memory is failing me these days.

So I have to write everything I wanna remember/blog it out.

I’ve forgotten to call up moe again to ask about my withdrawal. :/

Hopefully I’ll remember to call tmr and hopefully they will be able to give me an answer by tmr.

Last year’s 070707 was spent with Sharon & jer.

Missed the great old times! It has been quite some time since all 3 of us are out TOGETHER though we’ve been meeting up in pairs!

and i'm sure i'm going fat after all the dinners with jer!

so sharon, you got to save me!!

It was 070708 ytd. I think maybe I should plan ahead on what I should do on 080808.

it’s a Friday so weekends are off! -hints- hahaha.

Anyway, had a great day yesterday with qiyou! (:

it has been quite some time ever since I go out with people who are super punctual, or maybe I should say is even earlier (15min!) than punctual!

thanks for the dinner! (:

Now, it’s down to one packet of rice! Hahaha.

But now, you owe me many other things too! Lol.

Since it was youths’ day and as a youth, I got a super cute green froggie keychain! (:

Got him “instant noodles”. that’s a super cute gift with hidden meaning! :x

Somebody imitated mr bean torturing his teddy super well! HAHA.

Too bad I cant take it down!

mr bean’s teddy bear is so real and so adorable!

It’s so tempting that I want to make it mine!

But it’s expensive! :/

anyway, sorry that you boarded the bus with me but that was nice of you! (:

icecream & crystal jade porridge on the next meet up!

Yay, my favourites! Great day out! (:

anyways, enjoy your camp!

cousin went for ndp preview last weekend and he’s tempting me with his rubbish nonsense again! -.- ohwell, it was my fault. Cos I tempted him last year when I went. :x

but nevertheless, I still wanna go! Ndpndpndp!

I really really love spore and I’ve always love the parade & performances!

& I love singing the national day songs with the rest of the crowd.

Judging by the fact I’ve always been so patriotic, any tickets for me? :s

Friday gonna be my last day at work. my colleagues suddenly told me that they missed me too. aww, i do feel the same way. ):

Gonna spend today to Thursday to do up cards for my colleagues! I have 11 for my dept and a few more for other colleagues to do! And I will also pick up some skills on making desserts from mummy (for the 1st time!) to make some desserts for my colleagues on Friday!

But I have tuition tmr night and thur night so I guess I gonna have sleepless nights for this week. And I’m dreading the lesson on thursday at bukit timah king albert park that area. though I end my lesson at 840, the place is so eerie,scary,dark and far! :/
**

TAG REPLIES:

2packets of rice; QIYOU! (: enjoy your camp!

Grace; suresure! i saved the photos to my com already! thanks so much! and you girls were really fun loving! (: hope to catch you all around soon!

Kristie; haha you are always with him. your good buddy right!

Gwen; lol you make it sound so wrong. I want an itouch! (:

Daniel not la; haha i already made my way there. (:

Jiaying; hahaha really no fate sia. Lol anyway, cheer up alright! time heals!

Jieqi; you liar! I where got force you to say I can sing and he doesn’t have fishball eyes? LOL. But it’s a fact that I really can and he really doesn’t have what. HAHA.

Zq; haha i didnt finish all the food by myself la. how could that be?! lol. and of course i'm a youth, i'm still 19! (:

2008-07-08T00:32:00.004+08:00

happy youths' day! (:

great time out today!

past few days have been great too!

shall post about the rest tmr.

dinner at ajisen! (:

we're still youths! (:

will reply the tags in my next entry!
goodnights! (:

2008-07-05T23:57:00.008+08:00

SYF GATHERING!

Thanks to all instructors who organized the gathering at jj’s place just now! (:

It was pretty sweet of the siglap twins to make all these clips for all the instructors and also to specially draw this nice and sweet Winnie the pooh and friends’ card for me! I totally love Winnie the pooh and friends and this is really sweeeeet! (: thankyou!

SYF! (:

the three of us (:

one last cheer! UNITED WE STAND, DIVIDED WE FALL.

SYFOC08-REDCROSS! (:

alrights before i fall asleep at the SFA (standard first aid) course at HQ tomorrow morning all the way till 6pm, i better rush off to bed.

and in case anyone wants to be curse me for always being so busy to meet up for dinner, i can meet up for dinner after my sfa course tomorrow.

just text me at 90065359! (:

TAG REPLIES:

2packets of rice; seriously I still don’t understand how you can get here. Explain to me alright! I can be easily reached at my email. (: Let’s see if you are smart to find out. LOL.

so when will that be? Expiry date will be before the nation’s birthday! Rice cannot keep for too long, you know. HAHA (: what's your name by the way? it's weird to address you as 2packets of rice yea? LOL.

Bettina; Thanks so much betty! (: yepps I got into the course and school I have always wanted to study in! (: yesyes! We haven’t seen each other for a long long long long time already! I think the last time was when you passed me your headgear? Anyway, it’s still with me! And someone’s hitting 20 soon! HAHA!

Guoying; HELLO! (: thanks for all the plannings for angel mortal. But next time also plan an angel specially for me k! HAHAHA. I’m forever 17 at heart what. =x and moreover, it’s not my fault cos they say I look like 17 too. ;D heheh.

YJ; thanks so much! (: I can only confirm 100% my entry into nus after I successfully hear from moe. Anyway, hope you’re doing fine in army! (:

Some words which some said touched me.

Thanks for making my day a better one! (:

2008-07-04T01:17:00.003+08:00

My teeth hurts like mad now. :/

Had dental appointment ytd and my dentist tightened it like mad with thicker wire.

I guess I will lose appetite for the next few days and my gastric will act up again. ):

On a positive note, I can lose weight! Yay!

Last week I already lost 2kg! cant wait to shed a few more kg!

I sound so contradicting, don’t i? :/

I submitted my acceptance form at nus yesterday. (: Anyway, the officer in charge

called me up ytd to tell me that I do not need to pay any fines or anything.

So I’m just waiting for an acknowledgement of my withdrawal from nie for now

before I officially announce that I’m getting into NUS.
FASS, I’m coming for you! (:

SYF gathering this coming Saturday!

But I’ll be late for I’ve SFA course with waimin maam.

Cant wait to see them though it has only been a few days since I last saw them!

While looking through the photos in the album, I really feel like going back to the

indoor stadium with them!

But too bad, all good things got to come to an end.

I think I miss everyone, the syf cadets and instructors. (:

And I think I miss everyone at the indoor stadium who I’ve interacted with. (:

To all who owe me things, e.g. 2packets of rice, a mail and etc, return me soon hor! HAHA. Looking forward to this coming sat! those who are late will be reserve! ;D but not me la! HAHA!

BELOVED COUSINS! (:

W SHARON! (:

**
WORKPLACE! (:

i left this note before i went for one week leave for syf & man, they missed me! (;

**
06A01!
CLASS DINNER! (:

**
SYF! (:
he jumped out the moment the camera clicked! LOL.

all pointing to qx sir! HAHA.

Someday, it will have to come to an end too.

Cos nothing lasts forever.

TAG REPLIES:

qingxiang; always my pleasure! (: and thanks! I’m so glad that I can get into my dream school, dream course! You contributed to me getting in too! (:

Leonard; thankyou! HAHA. I know you are very nice. Help me get that no. alright. Lols!

Hweehwa; HAHA. I’m posting it up in my photobucket. it’s only for my eyes. LOL. And please, there’s no typo, I CAN SING! ;D go to my photobucket to see the photo! (: it's in the syf folder! he's super handsome lor! dont listen to jj. LOL

Saritha & JieQi & Daniela; -___-!! I CAN SING! Omggg, your tags are giving others here an impression that I cant! Don’t spoil my reputation lehhh. LOL. yay, seeing you all on saturday!

JJ; yea will link you up by this weekend alright! (: and and, he's not bad what. really super yandao lor. HAHA. i think they wont be disappointed when they see the photo. LOL

Zq; yea, 2 years sure flies! hope you're doing fine!

Nic; Seeing you later! (:

Kristie; hahaha i caught you at the bus stop at lakeside with a guy!

2008-06-30T00:45:00.005+08:00

Hello all! (:

I’m finally back for an entry after so so long!
Cant be blamed, I’m actually quite busy, lethargic, sick and lazy (oops).
So I’m really sorry if I’ve neglected this place.
I reckon that a lot of people still visit this place for I haven’t been updating for months but I’ve decided to make a comeback!
Anyway, shall keep this entry short and sweet before all the photos are being posted!

Most importantly, for tmr morning, I’m taking half day leave.
Will need to go moe building to withdraw my nie application.
Nus accepted me just on Friday night, my appeal is SUCCESSFUL.
Shit, I do pray hard that the nie withdrawal will be successful.
It has always been my wish to get into nus! Please let me successfully withdraw from nie.
Pray hard for me, please!

APPEAL SUCCESSFUL!

Been pretty busy with the usuals: work, tuition, meet ups and a few new stuff like: birthday present project, zoo trip, SYF!

For the zoo trip, it was TOTALLY FABULOUS! (: totally enjoyed myself there on world blood donors’ day, 14thJUNE! Happy 21st to sims too! hope you like the presents! (: shall post my photos up in the next few entries cos there’s simply too many photos to post up here. Stay tuned to my photobucket for the photos!

SYF 08 ended with a blast on Friday night.yes, like what qx sir mentioned, there’s no more syf after that night.
Teardrops rolled down my face for there were the many times that we all spent together that i gonna miss.
Gonna miss the times where all the cute, weird cheers will be heard from the squad!
Gonna miss words like “one volunteer”, “late go reserve”, “esther maam cant sing” -.-
Shall wait till the gathering to see all of them!

SYF 08, UNITED WE STAND, DIVIDED WE FALL!
(:

back to revive this blog! (:

2008-06-07T13:14:00.002+08:00

BACK! (:

too lazy to change a new blogskin so used back the same old layout.

gonna embark on a bp project for the next one week.

it's going to be really time-consuming and energy draining.

will be back to post alot of old photos tmr!

in short, thanks to all who still have been here for the past one month.

loves,

esther(:

2008-04-19T00:27:00.000+08:00

Ntu called me today.
And also a mail from ntu sociology divison at the school of humanities and social sciences! (I guess those who put sociology as first choice got it)

But shit, there’s a TEST.
The last time I even sat for a test was like for A levels, history intl paper?
Talking about this, I miss the classmates. And I miss some of my teachers, esp my bestest teacher, mr hendri! ):
I wonder how the guys are doing in ns, I wonder how the girls are coping with work, I wonder how my teachers are, having to handle all the kids in schools.

Alright, back to the TEST.
There’s this test I need to sit for, and man, as usual, I’m sure to get stressed up on Sunday night. ): no topic and nothing was given, I don’t even know what to prepare for the test. =/
heard from mizael sir that fass also conducting interviews. Shucks. =/

anyway,
It’s on MONDAY, 21st April, 11am. Wish me luck!

AWARDS & PROMOS-PHOTOS! (:

2008-04-18T01:01:00.001+08:00

SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE!

GOH makes his way in

GOH(:

lixuanns & me! (:

mizael sir & me! (: we were ACTING CUTE! LOL.
w xuan, ela, fulin & baoyu. (:

daphne & me! (:

the 3 adorables & shorts! (:

director, stepping down soon ):

the west-lies (:

west-lies(:

sf & i! (:

we took this photo in the toilet last year! (:

lixuanns & me(:

ohwell, i took a long time to upload these photos!
for my com is quite lag after it hanged itself after someone's convo box popped up just now. -.-

the rest of the photos shall be uploaded to my photobucket before the end of this weekends!

the next update will be real soon (in a few days' time i hope)!

STAY TUNED! (:

2008-04-18T00:09:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:

Yuanhao; haha I’ve been busy with meetups and redcross! So long never see you already! Hope to see you back at some redcross event! Our batchmates going missing. ): and yea, vantage point was such a nice show! I even watched twice! Yea, congrats on OUR promotions! (:

Wenfang; hello! (:

Zhiqian; hahaha I’m a partner of Fuhua okay! They better give me some shares of the school. Lol

Bettina; see you real soon alright! And we have yet to take photos with my pinkie! And you copy me! “lovesick”! LOL.

Tommy; hope that you are all fit and healthy in tekong! (:

Sharon; you didn’t say you want to meet me on april fools’ what. -.- boooo 25thapril still not here. Still having cold war with you. :x

Douglas; (: you are treating me dinner instead! Thankyou! ;D when’s the next supper at bukit timah?

Eileen; HAHA, my dress wasn’t short! Abit only la. =x I want to get that shirt dress too, perhaps we can get it together the next time we go shopping! (:

Nicholas; you liar! I where got mention his name for more than 50times that day? only more than 30, I think. =x I miss you la, assy!

Jeslynn; hahaha, mr chia’s really a great teacher, super encouraging and motivating too!

Adrian; lol, nolar, when you book out on weekends! (: hope you are doing fine in orion!

Kristie; you girls are so naughty to steal my phone! Lol, thanks for the chocs! (:

Elaine; LOL, I showed you the photos last sat! it’s so nice right! Hahahaha. –excited at the thought of it- ;D

Qingxiang; yea, I’m glad you know. seeing you later!

Wilson; you are always welcome! (: yes,we’re seeing each other tmr and on Sunday!

Sumei; LOL, that’s his usual volume la. But he quite poor thing also, always lose his voice.

Stephanie; hello hello! Of course I remember you, from woodgrove? Evac? (:

Lixuanns; the photos are up and your reaction is fast! Haha! Loveya! (:

Yixuan; lol, don’t worry la. It’s not you. it’s some other people. I forgot who took that photo. Is it elaa or you? lol. Must be elaa! HAHA. Oops =x

gets away from reality for a while

2008-04-17T07:36:00.004+08:00

someone once told me this before.

that after a good sleep, the next day when i wake up,

things will SEEM to be much better than it was before.

i have to agree it's true to some extent.

so yesterday, i went to bed after making the phone call at about 7plus

and slept all the way till this morning!

(with the exception of waking up to reply to sms-es at 3)

sleeping makes me get away from reality for a short while.

and shit, i think mum get to know this reasoning too.

today's mood didnt start off as good as the previous few days.

let it be good, i hope, for both today and tomorrow.

ohya, tomorrow, i'm taking half day.

and dental apoointment's at 2-230.

so i dont know what's going on after that.

Ron a sidenote, i'm super mean please!

i think i must have subconsciously answered his call AGAIN!

he called me while i was sleeping last night and i just realised that it's a RECEIVED call and not a missed call.

zzzz.

hope that he calls again tonight.

2008-04-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

lifepower,

the song that is keeping me awake for now!

sometimes, i have got to admit that you are one of the rare few

who has the the strength and power to keep me going,

& mentally strong.

wish me luck for wrcd tmr!

2008-04-11T01:19:00.001+08:00

HELLO!

will update all the happenings with photos and details and reply all tags by this sunday! (:
here's just a summarised update on the happenings for the recent week!

wrcd meetings
heritage cum town trip with assy nic
npcc first aid duty
class dinner at swensens
awards&promos at smu
shopping trips with eileen
sharon's birthday celebrations! (:

i feel happy for her for she has found hers, i feel happy for you starting to be make your presence known, i feel upset that it would be lesser time for us, i feel irritated when things start coming to me very last minute, i feel jealous when there's actually more than one (on the irony, i'm beginning to feel numb regarding the jealousy), i feel tired after having late nights for the past week, i feel disappointed with myself for making such careless mistakes, i feel that it's quite quiet and lonely esp at this point of time when...

how far will you go all out for your love ones?
it's always worth a few penny for thoughts.

2008-03-30T17:42:00.001+08:00

douglas rocks. :]
yes, and i'm seeing him next week!

i'm being forced to blog about this since i left out his name on my thankyou list.
=x

off to meet sharon!
and happy birthday, shuying! (:\

p/s. birthday post is below the tag replies post! (:

2008-03-30T16:55:00.002+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
jeslynn, tommy, shuying, eileen, kristie, estheryeo, felicia, gabriel, jiawen; thanks for all your well wishes! loveloves! (:
tommy; yes, my manager is quite good. i think i applied for a total of 6days leave & 5 1/2 days. =x and thanks for your wishes! (:
wenli; hello. linked! (:
yuanhao; haha. i also put in alot of efforts for school exams but everytime also fail so i guess, it was also of miracle and hard work that i scored such results. haha yupps you should have watched vantage point! it's really a thumbs up movie! (:
lixuanns; haha, thanks so much for your help in the camp! (: and i'm seeing you just next friday. smile more and cheer up!
felicia; haha! i know that you wanted to dsiao me. go organise gathering! (: and it's okay to get my age wrong cos i'm young! HAHAHA.
qy; (:
joelteng; haha, i'm glad you all enjoyed the camp! hope you do pick up skills along the way! (:
wilson; i really love the book to bits and i finished reading it! (;
kristie; i aint any monster okay, you small lil imp. HAHA! and you owed me chocolates! i dont care! =x
estheryeo; HEY! where got difference in height? -tiptoes- HAHA. we are both tall alrights. (;
nightmare; it will come before you enlist! haha. (:
bettina; yupps that's what i'm looking forward to too. we shall take alot alot of photos on friday! (: seeing you on friday, pretty!
zq; of course i didnt type out or you would die out of malu-ness lah! HAHA. they irritating leh, spelt my name wrongly. urghs.
gabriel; haha, nice & fresh idea yea? my cadets were so sweeeet la! (; yesyes, thanks so much for the wishes! -catches it from you- (:
jiamin: you are a big fat liar! i didnt drool at all! and i was wearing my black fbt alright. you are just making this up to make everyone laugh at me, meanie! LOL.

my 19th birthday! (:

2008-03-29T16:12:00.016+08:00

This post gonna be a little different. It will not be posted in chronological order since my big day should be placed at the top while the rest just continues in that order. Haha.

CAUTION: freaking long post.

25thMARCH :D

I AM NINE-TEEN, 19! :D
Still, I’m not old and I think I’m forever 18. =x
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF, HONGYI, YVONNE, GINYONG & MSLEE! ;D
It’s all our special days!

hongyi&me(:

surprises started coming in one by one

the moment i opened my eyes (or i'm being forced to. HAHA) when my dearest partner screamed happy birthday at me & appeared with lovely roses.

I WAS SHOCKED TO SEE HER!
And initially, I would really want to kill the person who woke me up 20min earlier than my usual timing and seeing me in my super awful sleeping looks.
But since she’s so super sweet that she appeared in my house before she chiong off to cps to teach, i shall love her more for that. [:

Off to work, took ½ day since there’s really a lot of stuff to be completed.
Chiong off to meet my dearest aunty for swensens icecream and had a great catching up session with her before rushing off to meet my darling & co. (:

These sweet ladies and celebrated my birthday at the fish&co at Wheelock.
Sorry to keep them waiting so long!
And the service there is seriously poor, and they screwed up quite a number of times too.
but nonetheless, what makes it good is the company I enjoyed there! (:

At 3pm, some big shot strolled in and my jaw dropped and was opened quite widely. NIC TAN THAT ASSY LIED TO ME FOR THE PAST FEW DAYS THAT HE COULDN’T COME AND BLAH BLAH. STILL MADE IT SOUND SUPER CONVINCING THAT MORNING THAT HE CANT TAKE LEAVE. ISNT HE SUCH AN ASS? -______-!! AND SHARON GANGED UP WITH HIM TO CHEAT ME OF MY FEELINGS. They are super evil. Boo. Though I really didn’t want to say that, still, that assy surprised me with the card that he lied about buying it.

the card is so sweet rights? (;

The super sweet card & box darling made for me. (;
everything of my cards, container and the shirt is so pinkish! HAHA.

And thanks so much for all the arrangements and plannings you had made for me! [:

Then came the super sweet birthday cheesecake that appeared all of a sudden from nowhere and it was really unexpected. Lovesloves! (:

Dinner with the family at the hilltop restaurant at tuas area. Fabulous dinner!

rushed off to meet the red crossers for a short while at je kbox!

Thanks Alvin & lixuan for the purply water bottle! (:

And the bottle that qx and me got for hongyi is exactly the same one, just that it’s bigger! Haha!

Went off to cck for vantage point again! haha. Cabbed home after that. (:
Day ended at 11.25pm when I boarded the cab. (:

Fabulous day, aint it? Oh well, at least to me, it was.
cos I met up with a lot of my loved ones! :D

thanks for all the lovely cards, presents and well wishes! to all who made an effort, be it to plan, to remember, to make me feel like a queen on this big day or even to "lie" to me for the many smiles in return on my faces, thanks a million! loves! (:

here’s the people who love me:

qingxiang, jiamin, sharon, nicholas, yvonne(sf), ashley, eugene, yankai, jerome, qizhen, jerome, huihui, zhiqian, shiyuan, cherminn, nada, sumei, mardiana, kristie, huiling, jesslyn, jasmine, shujian, jodie, denisechew, hweeying, jeanette, shuying, jiawen, yixuan, elaine, jasonlim, fulin, jason sir, jianfu sir, baoyu, alvin, mary, lixuan, bettina, minyen, alice, hongyi, ms lee, fiona maam, wanjun, yongjun, adeline, denise ng, qiuyu, yvonne teo, eileen, peiwen, adrian, jackie, conglin, hoesan, peishi, melvin, weijian, jinhua, ziyi, kaiming, peihwa, yanping, yuanhao, yuyan, lydia, vera, sherlyn, jessica, ginyong, felicia, daniela, tommy, esther yeo, jing ni, daniel, connie, jingni, emily, ferynn, wilson, daph, yishen, polly, yaxin, sharlene, farhana(jj), xianghong, gabriel, jinming, audrey!
:D

Thanks love. (:

**

21st March:]

My first present of the year & the celebration for the special day came on good friday.

Haven’t opened it and like I said,

I will open it next year when I turn 20, just in case... yes, you know what. haha.

And you surprised me with the present.

thanks so much for making the effort to go down earlier just to get the present. [:

Yes, and sims that ass and I went back to the place that we went last year

a few days before my birthday too. northpoint!

And this year, it was at delifrance where we had those super awful food.

Definitely not going back there again for those awful food. Yucks.
And I want my dinner at tuckshop. :x

Caught the movie vantage point and this is one great movie

that is strongly encouraged to be watched!

5stars for this movie!

It captured my attention fully for the entire 86 minutes

and I seriously don’t mind watching it again.

the company for the movie was good too. (:

Went to causeway point cos for we thought that there was a coffee bean there

for us to slack around, drink coffee and chat.

ended up at yakun toast cos coffee bean doesn’t exist at causeway point

and fancy studying in that region for 3years and this kind of mistake can be made. -__-!!

**

22nd March(:

Met up with short one & Kenny for dinner at hougang.

Thanks so much for the book, ps I love you.

i really love the book to bits! (:

**

23rd March:]

Met up with yankai after tuition. a short catchup session though. Should have more to come!
Before nic came, went to shop around and a simple shirt dress caught my sight.
Tried it on and tada!

Had dinner at kobayashi at cine & that assy nic mistook my birthday to be on the 27th! AHHH! That’s so mean right. And he did a lot of mean things too. boo.

Walked to ps to catch the show rule #1 (not that I want to catch it but was being forced to by someone :x ) and I was so petrified by all the scary scenes please!

Kept using my shawl to cover my eyes
but some assy just kept pulling my shawl away and wanna make me feel more scared

despite the sending-chills-down-my-spine sound effect. -__-!!

**
24th March(:
Headed to hq for west district camp post mortem after work. due to the heavy rain,
I was all drenched and wet thoroughly. =/
Post mortem started late due to the heavy rain and it ended super late, at about 1030pm.

some really good advice and feedback were mentioned, will definitely take them into serious consideration and implementation the next time round.
Anyway, it was a great time working with the instructors and definitely a good learning experience for all of us. Thanks for all your contributions. (:

The trio (Elaine, Jason & Fulin) surprised me with two super sweet brownies cum cakes for my birthday alright! ;D

it’s so super sweet of them and the brownies tasted just as sweet! (:

thanks so much!

-hints tanyixuan- lol.

**
26th March(:

Took a day leave again and went nus to get my admission pin since I threw it away a few days before the results release for I thought there’s no point keeping it since my results wont be able to make it anywhere near to admit in nus.

Went down to see the unit for awhile before meeting my dearest partner up for dinner at mos burger. It’s such a great catching up session with her! And there’s more to come! (:

**
27th March
Work, OT and tuition.

**
28thMarch(:

Took half day leave again. =x
Went to meet zhiqian, Kristie, jasmine & shujian before heading to sp with them for speech day. they surprised me with the SUSHI CAKE they made that morning and that’s why they were late in meeting me! it's so sweet of them right? (:

Doesn’t it look yummy to you? so sweet of them to make them for me right? (:
and I ate 25 of them at one go. HAHA. =x
And and, zhiqian never ___ his ____. (fill in the blanks yourself =x) HAHAHA.

On to speech day.
Yes, it was quite screwed up and etc. and it’s super irritating that they spelt my name wrongly. It’s esther ker sHi man. With the “h” okays. Irritating. =s
And if you realized, I’m still giving it a serious thought. Will the next speech day come for us? Will we still be sitting together, crapping about? We shall see.

Met up with denise & qiuyu at bugis for arcade, dinner & shopping! (:
More meetups to come please. “Dots you”. =x

Happy 21st birthday kokseng! (:

**

To end off, here’s the happy me! (:

with much loves,

esther. [:

2008-03-17T01:32:00.001+08:00

Sorry for not updating.
Ohwell, I wasn’t lazy, I was really tired every single day and recently,

I have been feeling quite unwell.

This gonna be a very long entry so make sure you have the stamina before you start reading.

Are you ready?
Ready, get set, GO! (:

**
8thmarch-11stmarch

It’s a camp that we’ve all been waiting for. The 4days had been enriching, be it to the cadets or the instructors. I’m sure everyone did pick up some skills along the way for it was the 1st project ncos 06 and the 2nd project ncos 07 that allowed me to learn so much from it and progress to where I am now. I am not good, but at least I’m equipped with some skills, so yupps, thank you sir for everything. (:

The cadets have definitely improved tremendously from the day1 really-bad attitude to the day4 positive & totally fabulous attitude. See the difference that have been influenced their mindset to change? It’s the hard work of the instructors and also their determination to change for the better.

Day2 night of the camp, an accident happened. But it’s not anyone’s fault. nobody wanted such things to happen too so let’s not put any blame on anyone. What matters most is I’m fine, isn’t it? (: thank you all my fellow instructors, friends, seniors, cadets and teachers’ for your concern. Don’t worry, esther is still the lively one, always jumping around. (:

This camp has bonded a lot of us, from fellow Vis to good friends outside redcross. Special thanks to the loyalty ones: qx sir, the one who started proj ncos 2years back, alvin, lixuan, hongyi & loretta. (: thanks to jason too for assisting me in so much so much admin things.

And I wholeheartedly agree with lixuan’s statement:

“Although we may not be the finest salt you can find in the bag,

we offered our finest in building the greatest."

(sorry lixuanns I borrowed your line cos it’s really too meaningful =x)

To all the cadets and instructors, thanks for spending your 4days with us in this camp. Hope that it has been fruitful for you. (:

NCOs, One voice one mind, ha! (:

**
12ndmarch-

Went for dental appointment and they changed the wire and tightened it.

I changed my brackets to pink.

Got no idea why I chose that but yupps, it’s changed to pink.

Anyway, my teeth hurts. =/

Caught the OG sales with sharon & we got ourselves real good deals.

Bought myself a brown jane shilton wallet for 60bucks when the initial price is 80bucks.

Had a good catching up session with her as usual. (:

**
13rdmarch-

Finally went back to work & my nice manager treated us to breakfast. (:
Met up with my dear ones: Jerome & sharon! yayys.

Dinner at xin wang hongkong café at cine, the place that the last time I went, they forgot all about my order and made me nearly late for movies and caused my stomach to growl throughout the whole of the movie, enchanted.

Drinks after that at balcony. The ambience there is so fabulous.

What’s most important is the company I had with my two good friends.

loves!

On a sidenote, Happy birthday shufang jie! (:

**
14thmarch-

Took half day leave and out we go to party world and yishun safra. (:

definitely had a great time with them. those girls bullied me during the taxi trip to yishun. lol =x

hope that the sentosa trip comes soon! (:

After dinner at northpoint, felt really sick again and thanks qx & hongyi for sending me back home. sorry for the trouble! and qx, get well soon alright.

Happy birthday alan! (:

**
15thmarch-

Went to the doctor’s before going to nus open house with Eileen & sharon. the courses talk was really quite useful as it made me realized the courses that I wanna take. But it’s kind of a headache now that the uni vacancies are only so limited and there’s so many people who wanna get into uni. One worry down, and another popped out from nowhere. =/

Went to mos burger at tiong bahru for dinner with sharon being heading to bishan to meet up with my family. Catching up sessions with sharon is always that fabulous and great. and that plan that is thought of by the smart aries ladies will work out hopefully. HAHA! Thanks for the idea, anyway. (:

Happy birthday short one! though you aren’t around now, I still hope my wishes will be sent to you through telepathy! (:

**
16thmarch-

Had my 3hour tuition with my kid, followed by a trip down to Queensway

shopping centre to get my cousin the goggle he wanted.

Just praise me that I’m a super nice cousin who would go all the way down to

get him the things he want. (:

**
On a sidenote, here’s a few things I wanna mention.
Firstly, thanks to all for keeping my tagboard so lively even though my blog’s so dead! (:
Secondly, to my sf, dont worry about me. i'm perfectly fine. (:

Thirdly, please start texting to this number, 90065359 if you wanna book me. HAHA.

loves,

esther.

2008-03-17T01:20:00.001+08:00

i seriously dont know where to start replying from. =x anyway, i will start from the results release. thanks to all for your tags before that and all the well wishes. i read them all before. (:
TAG REPLIES:
wilson, gabriel, rouisanna, tommy, xinyi; thanks guys! (: yea i'm glad that i got such grades too. (:
zhiqian, adrian & jeslynn; HAHAHA you arent the only ones cheated by me. (:
hwa, lixuan & peiwen; relinked (:
bettina; HAHA! too bad i didnt give you any blue-blacks. =x anyway, thanks for all your help in the camp and staying by me esp on day2! (: loves.
yuanhao; thanks dude! you scored really really well too! yesyes, i do hope i will have more confidence in myself next time. but it's really a miracle that i scored such results. haha
daphne; HAHA, yes, for once i finally like my chinese name. see you around soon yea!
dC; i know you are so happy for me, my dear. (: hope you are feeling alright after your aust trip. we got to meet up with nan ren soon!
hanthi, jieying; hello! of course i remember you all. hope that you all enjoyed the camp and linked. (:
jingjing; wah how you came here? haha. try to send again? thanks! (:
jiawen; LOL. i never bully you yea? when did i snatch seats from you? -acts blur- HAHA. and stop reminding me that i'm turning old. lol =x
shuying; LOL. i wasnt emo-ing, neither was i sleeping. i was singing along and having my own mini concert too! HAHA. and i didnt bully june okay. is she bully me. LOL! and i'm super young please. cadets say i'm 17/18. HAHA!
zq; HAHA! yupps it's still quite active. i've updated! (: and i'm still very young!
bek; thanks for all you have done for this camp too! you must have been tired waking up so early every single day of the camp. and must update me just as you have promised k? HAHA. you know what i mean. (:
kristie; you this meanie little girl. kept reminding me that i'm turning old. lol
wilson; shortone! miss you too! quickly come back and we shall have dinner at kobayashi! (:

2008-03-08T01:43:00.004+08:00

actually was really too tired to blog but just in case i may worry some of you,
thanks for all your well wishes. && i did well in my As.

it was 1000x better than how i expected it to be. ;D
A-history
B-economics
D-geography

-JUMPS & SCREAMS-
(:

when i walk out of the hall and i turned over the results slip, i stunned for 10secs, curses teacher for giving me wrong result slip for the "A" & "B" caught my eye, then again saw my full name, jumps & tears-
and for once, i'm proud of my full name: ESTHER KER SHI MAN. (:

thanks to all who have been supporting me all this while: family, classmates, 4cians, redcross friends, and all my dear friends! (:

& i created a miracle. (:

here's the lovely ones at dinner at fish&co before heading to siam reap at holland v for some beer & liquor. just love their company so so much!

okay, gonna tug in my bed.
camp's starting super early tmr.
& i'm feeling sick already even before i attend the camp. =/

things just arent fine.

2008-03-07T00:43:00.008+08:00

you will when you believe?

results are going to be out in another 14hours time!
pray hard for me that i gonna do well. i need to, or i'm screwed. =/

yes, i freaked out. it was such an awful feeling. breaking down every single day just isnt normal, aint it. but thanks to the sweet lovely ones who msg-ed me/sent me their well wishes. it just came at the right time.

anyway, please do not ask me anything regarding my results unless i tell you myself. thanks for being so understanding!

sidetrack a little, do cherish the people around you, for you dont know when's the last time you maybe seeing this person, talking to him/her or feeling their presence for the last time.

all the best to myself & all my friends out there.
let it be a happy day for me.
please please please.
let me get through it smoothly.

i feel lost, for no one's there tomorrow.

2008-03-05T02:39:00.005+08:00

In short, unless I have anything to elaborate, here it goes:

16th- NFC
17th- tuition & zouk flea with Eileen
18th- first day of work & west district camp meeting
19th-work, LS meeting
20th- work, meetup with sharon & hui
21st- work, TF meeting
22nd- work, family dinner
23rd- flea market with denise, 4C dinner, supper with Douglas, airport
24th- tuition, home
25th- half day leave, qx’s place, dinner with wufeng
26th- RCYECCSD meeting
27th- movie “ps I love you” with Eileen
28th- tuition
29th- half day, west district camp contact session
1st- movie “two faces of my girlfriend” with yixuan & the girls
2nd- tuition & family dinner
3rd- dinner with qiuyu
4th- which is now! (:

**

work at molex is fun & enriching. Cos I’m in the finance department, pick up quite a number of microsoft excel skills, costing stuff and etc. definitely a good learning experience for me and what’s more, the people there treats me really well. (:

there’s like not a lot of free time during work to slack around cos life in the finance department is really really busy! But luckily, the environment there isn’t stressful. (:

**
23rd-

It’s a day that I’ve been waiting for! 4C GATHERING! :D
It was definitely a successful gathering!

25/44 people turned out. Mind you, it’s been 2years since we’ve graduated. Some of the classes that just graduated from sec school a year ago or just recently may not even have this figure. I’m just proud of my classmates. (:

Dinner at fish market, ps. Seeing the long tables of people catching up just gives a warm feeling. It was just like yesterday that we graduated from school. It was just like yesterday when we were all sleeping in ek’s lessons. It was just like yesterday when we all signed the petition for we didn’t want sissy chong to be our maths teacher. It was all just like yesterday. Caught up quite a lot with jinhua too! and he scared me out quite a lot with the As thing. =/ anyway, there’s this rumour of my idol spreading around but still, I strongly believe that my idol is innocent. (:

Thanks yaxin & jiamin for organizing this gathering! (:

Didn’t join them on the walk to paradiz centre for i met up with Douglas before heading to the airport to send cousin off. Anyway, it’s a nice meetup with d of course! And thanks for the ride to my cousin’s place. (:
I’ll miss my cousin’s voice for the next three months. =/

**

What ties us all together is this word, Fuhua. Be it with yixuan, Adrian, or even my buddy, this journey ended early. Though we did said before that we will be the pillars of support for each other when we each lead our individual units, I’m sorry that I got to take a step earlier. I rather I abandon you than to let you abandon me like what you have been doing since last year. Actually the journey didn’t end that early also, oh well, I mean I spent 6years plus in Fuhua. 1/3 of my life!

**

Results will be released on Friday, 7th March, 230pm.
The next few days gonna be torturous. I’m still not mentally prepared for the worst and that may be the main reason so as to why I’m breaking down every few moments or getting into a state of shock whenever people mention about the release of the results. This is getting freaky, getting really eeky. =/

You know, I’m still the same old me, the esther who will panick when exams are here, will worry about results when it’s announced to be released in a few days. I’m still the same old esther who will breakdown at the thought of the scary results. zzz

I felt as though I lost myself in the search of the my goals in life. I used to have goals in mind and what to do and etc. but all of a sudden, I cant seem to find all these ever since I got the news that it’s going to be out on Friday.

Like what gurumak had said, in life, things do not go on as planned and even if it’s planned, it may not turn out that way for this is life. . The nicest thing on earth that can happen is when nothing is expected and it happened. (not her exact words but somewhat similar)

Please do pray well that I will pass my As with good scores. Pray hard for me.

p/s. i will give it a thought. (:

2008-02-19T01:57:00.002+08:00

i'm too busy and tired to blog about things that are happening and blah but here's just a short post for my squad, nobody else but my squad.

to my dearest squad 26,

didnt i wrote that we'll get there at the back of your photos? (: see, we did, hadnt we?

dont be sad that there was no placing for you all in the top3. dont be sad cos you thought you disappointed your maams. like what i told yixuan, you all are always the winners in our hearts. the true winners, who have won back such nice and sweet squadmates, a super blur commander and us, the two VIs. (:

isnt this the greatest achievement you can get?

my tears came rolling down when i met you all at the parade square and i gave a smile. the smile was for the fact that i was really proud to see all of you putting in your very best and never giving up even till the last minute. the tears were in fact tears of joy that made me felt so warm,the 18 individuals coming together as one, drilling to the beat as one and being so bonded now. (:

and seriously speaking, your drills were good. who say you werent good? werent everyone shocked by your unity when you marched out? the coordination of the armswings, the raised to 90degrees legs, the loud bangs and everything, it was totally awesome. we just lack experience this year. but i'm sure that we did pick some skills back and next year would definitely be better! (:

your never say die spirit impressed me and made me felt so proud of you. that's the fuhua squad that yixuan & i have trained, that's the squad that despite facing setbacks, it will not give in and it will continue to work hard till the very end. this perseverace of yours is one thing i will definitely bring along with me in my lifelong journey ahead.

i will miss the parade square, the saturday trainings, the lunches in school, and what's most important, i will miss you.
&&, why must you all make me cry at your posts?! BOO!
seriously, i miss squad 26. i miss my girls & the guy. tanyixuan, you are being missed too!

you are my first unit, and i promise you will be the last too.
and if one day, anybody were to ask me what's the previous unit that i took,i will be most proud to say FUHUA for there is all of you around.

win or lose, we are always one squad. always (:

say fuhua from the west (echo)
i say fuhua is the best (echo)
i say fuhua beats the rest & in the west we are the best!

*tune of myojo maggie mee*
FUHUA!!

loves,
esther.

2008-02-15T14:57:00.000+08:00

it has been long ever since i stepped into this place.
i have been busy, really busy ever since my last proper post.

in summary,
here's what i have been busy with:

house visits esp on day1 & 2 of cny! (:

house visits are so nice! especially with my cousins around! (: and mind you, i wore dresses on 1st two days of cny! haha. went hongyi's house with the gang. his mum can cook really well. had a nice time catching up with them! (: the chocolates gambling can be addictive. haha

pool with the gang after the visit to hongyi's place! it's a record breaking day, isnt it? wows to keane & boos to qx. (:

meetups

meet up with nic for 4days consecutively! went shopping with nic from mon-wed for his gf's present, sourcing out craft materials, and the making of the card was the most tedious job!
dinner with denise, short one and daphne! it was definitely a nice catching up session! kobayashi! (:
meetup with hui (sorry to make you wait so long while i had my interview)
meetup with sharon! (thanks for the super nice mel bag! love it to bits! )

OTHERS

braces appointment (they tighten it and ouch, it hurts. ): on a lighter note, it've been changed to purple brackets! )
fdc training (last training! ): it gonna all end tmr. )
job interview (i got employed & i'm starting work next monday!)
redcross redcross & more redcross. (secretaries for all events! )

see how busy & worn out i am?
i think i need a break but somehow, all this just crams together and i cant find the time. what's more,i'm starting work on monday, admin temp at molex. hope that i can cope with everything well.

but still, even though i never update, thanks to all who made my blog hits jumped by a 50 everyday. and also, thanks to your tags! (:

**

i'm off to camp in another 2hours time.
yes, it's the fsrcy fdc08 camp.

to my squad who is not going to see this since you are booking in soon, i'm here to tell you:
all the best! i have faith in you girls & my one and only guy of course.

for the past two months plus, it had been tough on all of you, to have endured through the numerous tough trainings and scoldings. it has been tough on us to, having to handle all sorts of things.

all the tears, the disappointments, the joy and the laughters,
it is all found here, in fdc08's squad.

i know some of you may still not put your whole heart and soul into this competition for you are unhappy with the scoldings and etc, but let's put together this unhappy past and fight on for one last day.

alrights, i know it may seem quite dumb but yes, this 2002 ndp song has it all that i want to tell you, have it all that i want to sing to you, have it all to tell you that we will get there together as a squad.

the competition is all going to end in another 24hours time. win or lose, we are always one squad.

let us give in our all and let's fight fight fight to the very end. we can do it, i'm sure we can. let's bring fsrcy to glory once again at bendemeer's parade square tmr! (:

We Will Get There
Remember the days, we set out together with faith?
Remember the times, so fine, when we thought that
Nothing could stand in our way?

Then things weren't the same, the life that we knew had to change
We've struggled through, the darkest storms
We thought we couldn't tame
Together we've tried, as we stood side by side
I knew we'd build a new world
A world of hope for ever after.

Chorus:
Deep in my heart I just know,
Right from the start, we will grow
Look where we are, we've come so far
And there's still a long, long way to go.

With all of my heart, I will care
I'll play my part, I will share
With family and friends, together we'll stand
And in the end, hand in hand
We will get there

So now we begin, working together to win
Believing in trust, it must
Be possible to overcome anything.

There's so much to do, there's so much we can contribute
By sharing just a little love
We will start again anew

So why don't we try?
If we stand side by side
I know we'll build a new world

A world of hope for ever after.
(Repeat Chorus)

FDC08, DRILL TO THE BEAT AS ONE, HA! (:

2008-02-15T14:52:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
tommy; nah, false alarm from my friend. it’s coming out on last week of feb as heard from seab. ): I’m getting fatter and fatter each day. but luckily, I have my braces to balance it up since I cant really eat a lot after they have just tightened it on wed. =/

maosiie; yes maam! (: haha, I will try to. past few days have been really busy and got freaked out when I heard that results are releasing so my mood is abit lousy. anyway, happy belated valentine’s! (:

nightm@re; okays, I get that. I know my msn sucks. HAHA. sorry la!

kristie; boo! you promised to save some chocolates for me but you ate them all up. ):

zq; haha! cannot is it? we both love chocolates and prawn rolls what. (: see you later and jiayou for fdc, commander! (:

dC; you liar! how can you possibly tell such a lie at my blog? I know I am okays. (;

2008-02-13T01:12:00.000+08:00

too lazy, moodless & tired to update.
goodnights!

2008-02-13T00:43:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
eileen; i left a note for you at min en's place! =x
tommy; it often slipped off my mind to exercise after that. =x so that explains my back-to-the-fat-old-me size. ): i dont know leh. it should be this friday or next monday. it's freaking me out totally! ): happy cny!
qingxiang; your com is lousy la. anyway, take good care of your kneecap! meeting up with you again soon! (:
yuanhao; that can NEVER be possible. i'll just pray that i can do well. dont really pin too high hopes. =/ dont worry, you are going to survive in your field camp. hope that you are still kicking alive and coping well in the jungle. (:
shiyuan; happy cny! see you tmr! (:
freddy; yea, i saw that. and that photo is ugly please. boo.
kristie; i dont mind the chocs being fattening. i just want to eat! =x and stop tempting me with prawn rolls! you are so evil. haha but anyway, too bad, you cant really tempt me that much. cos up till now, i think i finished about 4-5bottles of it? HAHA!
gabriel; haha dont be so pissed. there's still sweeney todd. (:
dC; it's monday! (: and i'm seeing you again in a few days' time.
zq; yalor! she's so mean right. lol
rouisanna; HAHA! that will not be true for me, i guess.this bad habit of mine is really hard to kick off. i think this running to bus stop and from place to place has already become like a daily routine to me. lol

2008-02-06T15:04:00.000+08:00

It seems so different.

Sweeney Todd
;the demon barber of fleet street

My first movie of the year & Sad to say,

it’s my first m18 movie too after I turned 18 nearly a year ago! =/

and yea, it was dedicated to mr mok cos he loves Johnny depp. Haha!

M18 movies are usually very gruesome, full of violence and horror

& it’s just not my cup of tea.
Despite not being my cup of tea, i watched it. =/
It was quite gruesome and irritating at certain scenes and many a times,

I had to use my shawl to cover my eyes for they were really disgusting. =x

Nonetheless, the movie was nice, so was the company. (:
Thanks for the jacket & the ride back home! (:

**

27 dresses
;always a bridesmaid, never a bride

Ohman, the dresses were so cute, pretty & some were so hilarious. HAHA.
James Marsden acted in this show again! (:

ohwell, he just reminded me of the movie enchanted and …

Watching this movie makes me feel like getting married too!
I wanna get married now!
alrights, I must have gone cranky again. zzz

Anyway, sharon and I were discussing that perhaps next time,
we can become wedding planners too!
it’s such a nice job, planning such blissful weddings for the couples and feel the love that exists so strongly when two individuals would want to sign on this
long-term-till-death contract and commit to each other.
It’s just so sweeeeet. (:

**
I hate myself so much!
Fancy me eating two slices of butter cake at 12.40AM last night?!
And it’s BUTTER cake. It’s damn fattening please!
I gonna look so fat in the dress I’m wearing tmr. ):

Anyway, I’m looking forward to reunion dinner later!
Gonna chat with my lovely cousins like nobody’s business! (:

HAPPY CNY! (:

2008-02-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
yixuan; HAHA, that's her typical way of doing and saying things. can really drive people crazy. no no, dont ever block me. i think i'll scream at whoever's blocking my way that day. ha, pray hard that the competition will go well for us and my results will turn out good for me.
kristie; no need to apologise la! haha! okays, i hold you for that. yay, you are saving some chocolates for me! (: i love chocolates! purple braces is coming my way! (:
princess; hello polly! i never forget you la! haha. i have been too busy with a lot of stuff. happycny! (:
brose; LOL. you will get to eat them when you do house visits? HAHA. or maybe after our meeting on the 22nd, we go eat chicken wings? lol. thanks brose! take care of yourself too! (:
alvin; happy cny! (: see you soon!

2008-02-03T23:46:00.000+08:00

the good, the bad, the laughters, the tears.
The good ol’ memorable times.

“cos there are some part of my boots got white white thing,

I used the black paint to paint my boots to cover up.”
HAHAHA.

This really gave me a good laugh yesterday.

But sad to say,all good things do come to an end.

**

Footdrill com is just another 14days away.
Let it be a memorable competition for all of us, for the 17, for yixuan and for me.
Do it well, do it good, do us proud.

**

today is my last day of work.

yays, no more tiger beer for me!

anyway, weiliang was nice to pay me a visit yesterday with

my pay cheque and chocolates. (:
Gonna make a trip down to Adecco tmr before going down to hq to

meet the juniors to pack the logistics for Footdrill com safety.

Thankfully, I have people like them to volunteer to pack the logs. (:

meeting douglas for movies tmr. (:

off to bed, goodnights!

2008-02-03T23:29:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
hazel; sorry nut! had been really really busy for the past few days. will touch my mailbox tmr! =/ takecare alrights?

peiwen; the shirt is really cute! (:

kristie; you are super evil please. but I seriously think I cant eat the new year goodies. =s I’m changing the colour of the brackets to purple! (:

d; hello daph! so sorry that I didn’t attend. was quite sick and I don’t have the energy to pull myself out. I’ll definitely go for the next meeting! take care! (:

zq; I updated already! (: haha, my msn is kind of screwed.

yixuan; nah, don’t be crazy. I can never be the top scorer. this time round, I wont let you open my results slip for me. HAHA.

tommy; yesyes! you are quoted! your words always make so much sense and knock me back into reality when sometimes I do feel like running away from it. haha, yupps I do have a super busy schedule. results gonna be released soon! ahhh. =/

yuanhao; it’s okay. you can still take them after you are out from that two torturing years of NS. haha! besides, taking appointments can be quite stressful at many a times.

gabriel; yupps, let’s pray for good results! hope that you are adapting well to ns life, guoxiong! haha.

2008-02-01T02:42:00.000+08:00

Oops I lied. =x
I lied about wanting to blog after I knock off from work on Monday night. =x

I had been busy with:

work! (yes, my tiger beer promoter job)
tutoring my kid
sourcing out first aid documents
doing up safety plan for NFC
watching gong zhu xiao mei
fsrcy training

meetups are all being held on hold since last week and okays, I hear people scolding me now. =x I’ll be able to meet up starting this coming Friday! (: so please stop cursing me. Haha. My work assignment is going to end this coming Sunday and I’ve have more time to meet up after that! yay. (:

**
Release of As
O level results are out. the release of the o level results would spell that doomsday is nearing. Damn, anyway, I plan to be late on the day which A level results will be released. It’s going to be damn scary if I have to sit there and listen to the principal’s preachings and that would make us all more nervous. I would rather be late than to have my heart jumping out of my mouth even before the results slip is in my hands. =s

-prays hard that I’ll do well-

**
A lesson to learn
Scoldings are things that we will have to encounter along life’s long journey. If we are scolded for a valid reason, it just tells that we will have to correct ourselves and not go on making the mistakes despite knowing it. Of course, if we are being misunderstood and being scolded, we will definitely feel that we are being wronged. Those scoldings will develop hatred in them, for they are being wronged.

Scoldings are the ones that trained one to be disciplined, to correct their own mistakes and not commit it again. they are the ones who hit you hard and make you swallow your pride and ego. On the other hand, they are also the ones who make people realise the truth behind everything.

Taking things for granted is one mistake that everyone of us do make, be it to the people around us or people who love us. I cant deny the fact that I do make this mistake. Sometimes, when we take things for granted, the next time when we yearn for this person to stay by us, it is already too late. This person is no longer there, no longer standing strong to be your support. You have hurt this person way too deep.

when you are the one taking things for granted, you do not know how much you hurt the other party. Only when you are being taken for granted, perhaps, you will then understand the feeling.

This is one thing that everyone of us definitely have to learn and walk through in life. If not, we will forever not grow up.
Face it, face the reality, know the truth, know your mistakes and correct them.

**
Significant meaning
Just like what tommy said, there’s always an end to everything. Though things may end it that way, it’s accompanied by good memories and those memories are the ones that will never be stolen away cos it belongs to me. It is not only of significant value and meaning for that very reason. It’s also because it’s where it all started.

**
Red Cross
a number of chances to take up appointments are given this year, having at least 2 on hand now, one for short term, the other for a year basis. Though I feel stressed having accepted these appointments, fearing that I will screw it up and do a lousy job, I’m quite thankful that I’m being nominated/ being approached for it. (:

**
More of my random thoughts:

blog hits reach 390+ and it’s only been 6days! It’s not even a week. haha thanks all for being so supportive of my blog.
I love online shopping! (since I don’t have much time to go shopping)
the Caltex manager is cute! =x
you are definitely being missed! all those songs heard, reminds me of you. (:

**
PHOTOS(:

the loudhailers :]

batchmates at awards & promos 07 (:

classmates(:

Alrights, enough of my randomness. =x
Off to source the map required for NFC.

i definitely need to have an early rest tonight.
I’m having a headache for sleeping at 4 last night. =/

2008-01-28T12:08:00.000+08:00

will update when i knock off from work. (:

2008-01-28T11:50:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
kristie; lol, who ask you to be such a glutton! haha! i’m changing colour too on the 13rdfeb! it’s coming! and i’m abit scared. =/

ava; thanks for saying that to cheer me up! you are? think you must be one of the instructors down at the first Vis meeting. (:

emily; sorry! i’m quite busy with work and redcross now. =x will be slightly more free after this weekend cos my work assignment is ending. yay yay! i’ll be going!

nic; -___-!! you already know who right, still want to purposely ask here. BOO!

jmin; that’s so NOT true! YOU ARE LYING!! besides, i rarely go to the market. HAHA!

hazel; so-so, not that good, neither that bad. you you! you haven’t been updating your blog and i don’t know if you are doing alright! dropping you a mail later today or tmr! (:

yuanhao; don’t worry! you are not going to die! i’m sure you can cope with the tough training at tekong! ninja ninja! haha

freddy; you are back! (: glad you are coping well in there with kianwee and the rest. haha meet up soon alright?

tommy; mr cheng, your words never fail to knock sense into me. (: Yes, they are indeed good memories of mine and it’s something that no one will ever be able to snatch it away from me. (:
zq; haha, updated! (:

2008-01-22T13:36:00.000+08:00

It’s the last already.
I feel demoralized, I feel disappointed.
How am I not supposed to feel this way?
It’s not easy, never.
We’ve gone through so much so much, braved through the storms and still standing strong.

now that it has to end.
It will be impossible to carry on in the future.
Worst still, it cant even end with a high note, it cant even end with our very own.

How am I supposed to face it now?
It’s like an internal struggle within me.
The project, the love, the bond, everything has gone with the wind.
Everything.

I just came across some of the photos.
It makes my heart break when I see them.
Especially at this point of time, I swear this feeling sucks.

I’ll wont be fine in the short while.
I’ll need time, time to wash away all these disappointment.

Allineednowismypillarofstrengthandsupport.

2008-01-22T13:29:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
yeecheng; hello! shocked to see you here. anyway, i replied you in your blog. it’s at harbour front shopping centre. (:

junjie; LOL. it’s kinda sad la. i have at least 7friends whose name is the same as yours! -junjie. HAHA! but i’m still smart to know it’s you.

kristie; you should stay at home to do homework! haha, yupps the bukit timah caltex is ulu and dark. but luckily, my dad drove me there and sent me back. (:

dC; i koped that class photo from the fuhua web! & i miss you too! nah, ask your secretary to book an appointment with my secretary! haha! i’ll only be free after 3rdfeb cos my work assignment ends on that day. date me date me!

wenfang; you HAVE! stop denying! i think maybe i should pull it up when i see you. LOL.

emily; i bet you missed me A LOT! HAHA! :D i bet you are so much slimmer now right? shall we meet up for dinner next month? this month i’m fully booked. =x

tommy; oops, a lecture from mama. =x haha, i robbed the bank so i got millions of money! HAHA. no la, i rarely go shopping so still have abit of money.

eileen; haha, i don’t think i’ll so easily get sick of tanks. now i got a variety of colours in my wardrobe! (: haha, thanks thanks! oh, they sent me so far last week but this coming and next week gonna be so much nearer to me! next wed & thur, i’ll be working at the spc opposite my house! haha! lucks for your job!

elaine; i just love messing up your hair! even before i mess up, it’s already messy enough alrights? HAHA! ;D ahhh, now everyone knows i have messy hair, thanks to law sir! =x and i gonna bite you with my metallic teeth this friday!

maosiie; yea,our photo! (: anyway, thankyou so much! i got something to share with you when we meet up on friday! cheer up! (:

2008-01-18T01:54:00.000+08:00

TUESDAY, 15thJan! (:
Hitting town with my faves really make me happy. :D
All the nice nice clothes, shoes, accessories, they all make me happy! :D
What’s most important is must have the money to spend and indulge in all these temptations!
And nic, I don’t live off my parents, ahma, aunties and etc k. boo!

Town-ed with nic on tue and yupps, my role was just to accompany that super fussy guy to shop for his clothes so I got nothing for myself. ): He’s super super fussy. I think more fussy than girls. LOL. =x

Shopped from orchard to somerset to plaza sing. (:

**

WEDNESDAY, 16thJan! (:
Towned with hui yesterday and of course, I allowed myself to indulge in these sweet temptations. :]

Got myself a second dress to be kept in my entire wardrobe. Alrights, it’s not to be kept. It’s to be WORN! :] It’s maroon brown and I love it! :D got the green everlast canvas pumps too, though it isn’t what I wanted in the first place but it’s just as nice. bought a dark brown belt too. anyway, online shopping is fun! (: bought a r&f red polo tee and a blue collared bf’s tee online too! (:

And i’m nice to buy an everlast polo tee for brother too. (:

next on my to-buy list gonna be the butterfly belt which I spotted at far east and a pair of heels. :]

met with nic and roach and off we went to Adecco to settle some stuff. Towned with them from orchard to somerset and I finally had my meal at kobayashi after not being able to lunch there the last time I went cine. Hui went back and off we walked to plaza sing to shop for nic’s shirt. It’s definitely a nice green top from the graphic tshirt design shop! (:

and as usual, they got fascinated by my big bronze bangle which I wore it above my elbow. Too bad their hands are big and it cant even be worn up anywhere near their elbow. HAHA. And and, stop saying I got big fat muscles. -_-!! I’m going to bite. –roars-

I’m definitely going to save and scrimp as much as I could to purchase the super sweet and nice craft materials from “made with love”. The cards and scrapbooks are so sweeeet!

**
THURSDAY, 17thJan! =s
Happy birthday honglun! (:

I got through 4LONG HOURS of maths & science tuition just now. It was meant to be 3hours initially but she extended it for 1 LONG HOUR when I was already so tired and hungry. Urghs. I got my first pay just now, which half of it goes to my agent for this first month so I’m left with nothing much cos I’ll still need to pay my phone bills. =/
Endure, hang in there for the sake of money! But I don’t think I’ll be able to tolerate all these for long.

**

Alrights, enough of all that ranting.
At least I’m happy that I bought a shirt dress and a few more tanktops! Oops, I sense people throwing daggers at me for buying tanktops again! =x got myself a black brown striped bucket bag too! yayys. :]

**

I’m gonna be busy for the next few days so I reckon I would have the time to blog. Work is starting tmr and in case you still do not know, I’m working as a sales promoter for tiger beer. And please, I’m not pi jiu mei or whatever you name it as. HAHA. Anyway, here’s my schedule.

FRIDAY; 18thJan

Lunch with sharon
Redcross training at Fuhua
Taman Jurong NTUC from 5pm-9pm.

SATURDAY; 19thJan
Happy birthday in advance, ahhwa! (:

Redcross training at Fuhua
VIs meeting at campsite
Bukit Timah’s Caltex from 6pm-11pm
(so do call me at 11. please please please. That area is so freaking isolated & nic says that it’s freaking dark and quiet. =s and I will have to take at least an hour before I reach home. =/ )

SUNDAY; 20thJan

Tuition from 9am-1030am
JE’s SPC from 12pm-5pm
Bukit Timah’s Caltex from 6pm-11pm (it’s the same ulu petrol kiosks again. =s )

Hope that i wont die from the excessive breathing of the pollution coming from the vehicles at the petrol kiosks. =x

**
PHOTOS! (:

lovely pw group! :]

year batchmates at rcy challenge! (:

lixuan & i. (:

the lovely ones. :]

movies? meeting up? I bet so.
I think I caught a cold. =/
Alrights, off to bed!

goodnights! (:

2008-01-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
wenfang; short skirt-er,i'll kill you if you remind me of my nightmare again. LOL.
joanne; thanks! (: so far,i dont have any ulcers at all. oh yay, i broke the record! this shows that i have thick skin? =x lol.
yvonneteo; you this evil meanie! trying to tempt me with food?! i wont be moved! haha. i'm adorable, not cute. HA! ;D
jmin; i'm throwing daggers at you! i cant eat buffet now!! ): ask yaggie dont organise buffet gathering la. =x anyway, cheer up! waiting for your call later on at night. (:
nightmare; -__-!! i'm going to repeat this, i'm NOT beer girl. i'm just a sales promoter! lol, yupps going this saturday. talk to you more tmr! (:
jinhua; i'll meet up with you all provided you all dont laugh at me and my braces kays? LOL. i'm scared la. and i miss you all terribly too! it has been months ever since i last saw you all! ):
junjie; TANJJ! you still dare to say it's on purpose huh. you are so going to get it from me! dont ever let me catch you in fuhua! -ROARS- by the way, my friend mistook you for another jj in redcross. you got such a common name that everyone else in all their blogs dont know which jj you are. HAHA! &&, stop calling me by my full name! esp, my chinese name! -_-!!
bettina; thanks betty for standing up for me! (: you know me so well that i so dont like people calling me my chinese name. just feels weird. =s you can have my chinese name if you like. LOL. anyway, he's not the jj we both know. he's another jj. such a common name right? lol. see you in 1day's time! (:
kristie; i've been really forgetful to get the new type of toothbrush. =/ will get it tmr hopefully! i face difficulty eating fillet burger! =/

2008-01-15T13:19:00.000+08:00

This is your long awaited entry aint it? Haha. There have been >100hits over the weekends! wow. (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY, SPECIAL FRIEND! lovesloves! :D

this entry gonna be random and boring.
Anything that comes to my mind will be blogged about.

**

Results will be out in less than a month or so. AHHHHHH!~

This year, O lvl results will be released on the last week of jan. unless ours is a popping-out-of-nowhere release date, we still have a month of so to enjoy ourselves before our doomsday is here.

People often say results aren’t everything but is that really true? Everywhere you go, people will ask for your qualifications. That cert, though worthless in monetary value, is priceless in the journey that you’ll be embarking.

Alright, enough about results. It’s just dampening the mood.

**

There’s VI meeting at campsite this Saturday afternoon. Transport fee is super expensive! ): have to leave the training halfway. Hope that they will be disciplined enough to train for the next few hours after we left.

**

I must admit that it feels weird talking to you just now.
You know the reason.
Anyway, take good care of yourself.

here's some photos to cure your monotony of my entry. (:

4cians on graduation day 05! (:

i miss wearing fuhua uniform with them. =s
Angqizhen! You have gone missing! Miss those peeps like denise, qiuyu ash, jinhua, yaxin, and etc. ):
p/s ash, check your email! (:

don’t you girls just miss wearing the bikila/ owens/ banni & rono tshirt?

Thanks to you that we clocked new timings for 2.4! not forgetting darryl too. (:

Our good ol buddy who’s now slogging his all in ns. ):

Alrights, gonna go prepare myself before going for dental and hitting town with nic! (:

2008-01-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

TAG REPLIES:
kristie; i still feel weird talking to people in my braces. ): i think i’m an alien la. =/ lol, i’ll get the correct toothbrush by this week, i guess.

yvonne; yepps i do miss you! eating porridge is healthy but imagine me eating it for 2 days, 6meals all porridge. that can really kill. ): but i’m glad that i’m able to eat noodles now. (:

freddy; take good care of yourself in there! (: hope to see you soon!

eileen; i know you must be so envious of me rights? LOL. wanna meet up this coming friday for lunch? msg you again.

jmin; these days hadn’t been fine so does that mean you are not coming over? LOL. =x alright la, meeting you up soon when i have the courage to face you with my braces!

yixuan; LOL. did we? i just dislike those people who cut in when we were saying our timing. you know who i am talking about. Haha.

gabriel; LOL. it’s not my fault. blame it on qx & nic. i’m totally innocent. =x linked ya up already! link me when you book out too! (:

tommy; sorry ma! i don’t mean it. but not to worry,i’m sure you fared well. (: i think i’m more worrying. =s

nightm@re; you are scaring them away. LOL

hazel; my braces are up already and they can be quite irritating. cant eat alot of food. can only eat porridge for the 1st four days. ): i dread 13feb. ):
unknown; it has been a long time ever since i last saw you!! and eh, i where got teach them bad stuff? BOO! you are still the same old you, zhen.
bettina; sorry i wont be able to meet you all up cos i have training before that at fuhua and i'll be going there straightaway with my junior. see you all there at the campsite alright? (:

2008-01-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

freddy just called me just now and he’s doing fine on his very first day there in tekong resort! (:
Anyway, jer is enlisting tmr. feel kinda sad. ): do take good care of yourself in there and drop me sms-es to let me know you are doing fine in there, bud! (:

**

Met up with nic yesterday after tuition and off we head to town. Hello NIC, it’s a SHAWL, come on, pronounce after me, shaaww-llll. it’s NOT a scarf! HAHAHA! Anyway, I nearly drove him mad, I think. =x whatever it is, if he dares to make all my teeth drop off, I gonna create havoc at teck whye ntuc tmr and blast the cny songs into his ears! LOL.

**

Didn’t meet up with Eileen and sharon for lunch today cos I still got quite a number of stuff left undone at home. Meet up with you all next week k? sorry about it!

Went Fuhua for training. Met wenfang at the bus stop again! ha I think I would be seeing her for the next few Fridays I guess! Anyway, that stupid girl reminded me of the fact that the results gonna be released soon. -_-! I’m going to kill the next person who asks me about when the results gonna be released. =x

Let’s hope that training will get better as the days come by. Anyway, the whole parade square was bombarded by all 4UGs. I like this feeling. It don’t feel so quiet and lonely. But nonetheless, we do need quiet times to conduct some peaceful trainings. Haha.

**
didnt go for dinner with the ncc clts. perhaps another time ba! (:
was reminiscing the past while waiting for the bus at that bus stop that is within the vicinity of the school. While reminiscing and even before I realized, he was standing right in front of me. Ha! Sometimes, the more we wish for something, it doesn’t arrive. When I didn’t expect it this time, it did. Whatever it is, it brought a smile to my die-also-cannot-smile face. (:

**

Just saw a mail and ohwell, things aren’t going the way it should be.
Let’s pray that it would turn out well. It got to carry on!

2008-01-11T01:06:00.000+08:00

I’m getting sick of eating porridge for meals.
Imagine eating that for breakfast, lunch and dinner. =/
It just makes me lose my appetite.

I will slowly get used to the metallic thing that is sticking to my teeth.
I’ll need to get used to it, for I’ll be living with it for the next two years until the year 2010. 2010 not only marks the year that the metallic thing can finally be taken down and that I have straight teeth, it marks the year that I turn 21, it marks the year my macho beloved friends ord from ns, it marks the year …

I’ll be looking forward to the year 2010. (:

**

Did I mention that I shed 4KG since As ended till now?
ohyay! –jumps around-

**

take care, freddy! (: all the best to your enlistment!
han,yuanhao and yongjun hope you are coping well inside. (:
qx, you are booking out again today!
jerome, you’re enlisting tmr! ):